rihanna - unfaithful
perfect song to fit the prfect mood.
down down down.
blues blues blues.
im not suppose to be online now.
IM NOT.
im suppose to be stuydin.
sticking to my timetable.
but here i am.
typing this out.
ups and downs.
emo week prolonged till now.
yes now.
if i have a wish.
i wish to disappear and be with granny.
so i wouldn't add up to ur sufferings.
im sry.
utterly sorry.
maybe by sayin sorry wouldn't cure everything.
im afraid to go sch everyday.
i really am.
steppin into class takes courage.
i ignored u.
purely on purpose.
so u'll give up faster.
but when i realised its not working.
i hate myself.
for giving those false hopes.
i lost my freedom.
i lost myself to selfishness. -
was there such a word.?i lost myself to love.
i just wna study.
i didn't wna all these things.
on the verge of breaking down.
i really am.
many time, i wish i weren't here.so no one suffers.many time, i wish i had terminal illness.so i wont have the time to think.many time, i wish i were strong enough.to handle all this.many time, i wish i didn't know how to cry.so i wouldn't shed tears.im sry.as i snuggles into my bed.i reflect on what i did today.i wish i were better off dead.screw me.
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