freaking maths teachers.
irritating mom.
2 full weeks of block timetable lesson starts next mon.
i chose not to go for SS and EM and EL.
but freaking SS teacher wants everyone to go.
if i go, i swear i'll get hyper confuse by the teacher and do worst.
i don't wna go e maths, ms kok is driving me nuts.
and the fact that i get stuck at questions is getting me pissed off.

meet the parent session (PTM) is super horrible.
kill the tan hs and my mom!
they tag team and made me agree to attend lessons on block timetable!
truth be told, SS is a waste of time okays.
it was just plain wasting time.

i can't wait for graduation.
getting out of HOLY is the best wish i ever wna fulfil.

maybe its time to come true.
the truth may cause people to hate me.
but i only ask for understanding, its okay if u don't forgive me.
IM SORRY~

fact be know.
I WASN'T TOGETHER WITH YEOWTING AT ALL.

it was just a lie, a lie to cover for everything.
its because of xunfu that i had to lie.
nobody knew how much sorrow he gave me.
but deep down, i was feeling all drained up.
yes, he once made me sway.
but he wasn't able to make me feel secure.
and we didn't click.
when he phoned me, we'll always have nothing to say.
he tried means and ways to make me go over his place whn he was sick.
but he didn't think of my feelins.
when i started ignorin him, he got worst.
at that point of time, i was suffering.
BADLY.
studies wasn't making any improvement.
and i spend my nights msgin him.
replying to his msgs.
when i first rejected him, he persevered on.
thn i realise im going crazy.
yeowting was being nice when he offered to help me.
by pretendin to be my bf.
but i don't wna tell the world we "broke off".
i want the truth to be known so that it'll be fair to yt too.
so here i am, telling the truth.
i cried when i have to go on with the lie.
each night, i drown myself with tears.
so i would slp soundly.

in conclusion,
ME AND YEOWTING WAS NEVER TOGETHER.
AND I WAS SINGLE ALL ALONG.

I'M SORRY THAT I'VE TO LIE.

those msgs which i hesistate to delete.
i wish i had the courage to do something about it.
but instead, i drown myself with tears again.
HE'S NEVER GNA BE THE MAN.

blogged at 10:34 PM

MUSIC PLAYING : Daniel powter - bad day

repeating over and over again.
bad day it sure is today.
i woke on from the wrong side of my bed.
moody the whole day round.
people asked me why i look so sian.
i tried to hide it all by saying.
nahs, i'm okays ahs. just that i wna go home fast.

things isn't looking too good.
and this isn't me.
to stop the flow of tears.
steven told me to stand upside down.
i bet i'll throw up my lunch.
it stopped and i'm thinkin again.
i'm tired, very very tired.

useless is all i could say about myself.
why?
why did it all happen and why do i have to be heartbroken time and time again?
crying was the only solution i know of.
i won't slit cause its not me if i do.
i just wish i could slp till forever.
PARENT TEACHER MEETING IS TML.
get lost man.

some photos.
the match i went to watch at indoor last night.
toilet affair.
drawing by my friend.
and how the corridoor outside my class looks like.























tml would be a better day.

anw, this goes out to STEVEN.
thanks for cheering me up just now.
most importantly, thanks for the ticket.
u didn't know, but u fulfilled one of my bday wish.
THANKS.
i'll try turning myself upside down the next time when i'm not full.
no, i won't cry anymore.
he wont be able to make me upset anymore.
cause i'm persisting on this time.
A BIG THANK U.
(:

blogged at 5:16 PM

when the final whistle sounded, the score was a 3-0
ARSENAL is back on track!
yes!
(:
theiry henry scored the final goal on the 90 min!

many thoughts were running in my mind.
it all feels so painful to be thinkin back.
i don't wna be in this anymore.

home alone on sunday.
bro booked in early this mornin.
mom and dad went to settle something at 3rd aunt's place.
so i settled my BRUNCH on my own.
instant noodles AGAINS.
sigh.
i wanted to date someone out for lunch.
but i was lazy to ask around.

MY PATHETIC BRUNCH













































behind those smiles, im actually crying.
can u sense my tears?

blogged at 3:11 PM

Music Playing : BEP - Shut Up

poor day due to bad tummy upset.
its horrrendous!
had been sleeping on and off since morning all the way till 2pm.
watched dvd when i felt slightly better.
then it was HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL.
live it up to your dream.
(:

some maths sum done on circle properties.
i thought after i dropped A maths, my E maths would be better.
but that's not the case.
i got a wonderful F9 for prelims!
38% if i'm not wrong.
that certainly teaches me to use my time wisely and mug harder!
come to think of it, i hadn't mug that hard for prelims either.
what a big joke!
okays, i'm going to stick to my timetable strictly!
no more slacking except well on certain occassions.
EG. i'm sick or whatsoever and oh! sports!

sheeesshhh!
talk about sports, the soccer match!
i kept forgetting about the matches.
ARSENAL VS SHEFFIELD UNITED @ Emirates stadium.
its half time now and CESC FRABEGAS is the man!
cheekily adorable and sauve.
i'm drooling over him.
HAHS.
thankfully, its still 0-0 and arsenal's on the upper hand.
HENRY is back from injury.


















isn't him handsome?
and he's only 19 with a great skill!
he makes the match nice!
the nice guy is ADEBAYOR.
who does the magic when henry's nursing an injury.
I LOVE SOCCER.
BUT, i love netball, volleyball and basketball even more!





























































the basketball frame i so LOVE, thanks yeowting!

as tonight ends, i pray that tomorrow would be a better day.
LOVES.

blogged at 10:53 PM

i'm some stupid fool who didn't see the balcony door that i slam my hand on it.
it's aching like some reheumatism or whatever way u spell FENG SHI.
can't believe i actually was so blur.

sch's definitely a bore after prelims.
all we do is to go through papers, hear mdm woo scream day and night, have fun.
i wish to stay home so i could sleep in till a later time.
ROARS!

using the internet is such a wrong choice in the noon!
my router kept getting low and i kept getting disconnected.
wonder if someone actually hack into my internet acess and use it.
LOSER PEOPLE.

i feel like a feather.
wherever the wind blows, i float to where it is.
its getting blurer.

blogged at 5:56 PM

clearly, we weren't as enthusiastic as before.
we used to get so high and ran all over the place.
but now, we just sit and stone.

this crazy lady has been calling my phone since ystd looking for AH SOON.
wonder which dumb ass wrote his number wrongly.
poor lady who kept calling and hearin me say the same thing all over again.
you've got the wrong number.
I"M HUISHAN NOT AH SOON!
this sounds funny though.
HAHA.

hougang point's under this mega renovation for i don't know what.
but they took away my MACDONALD, KFC, OLD CHANG KEE, SWEET-TALK.
now i'm only left with a poor KOPITIAM to fill my hunger.
try staying here since 10 years old and see if you would still want to eat the food from KOPITIAM.

i feel like playing sports now.
the weather feels nice and cool.
i'm going to swimming when i'm free and it's all sunny.
PROVIDED I'M NOT LAZY TO GET OUT OF MY HOUSE.
and now, i feel like sleeping.
what a pig i am.

i told myself that i've to stand firm.
so even when i know whats in place for u.
i told myself to just mind my own business.
u got called up during the hair check.
i knew it since the day before the hair check.
i'm afraid.
afraid to show concern to you and giving u the thoughts of hope.
i just wna be the good friend who cares.
but i didn't dare to after what happened.
i don't wna u to be dependent on me.
just like when u were ill and wants me over to get food for u.
you have a maid alrights.
i wish you would study and not disappoint ur mom.
u once said u'll do anything just for me and now.
i wish u would study for your own future and not because of me.

deep within, there's many untold stories.

blogged at 4:21 PM

i miss tht match tonight lahs.
nice match can!
but i was at home.
):
saw the results online but heys.
WATCHIN IT LIVE IS BETTER OKAYS.

so i wna go on next wed!
NEXT WED NEXT WED!

studying continues.
prelim results were all crap.
most of my result were a C6.
WOW.
great huh.
but well, this shows i've lots of space for improvement.
whatever it means.
i've to CHIONG.

i slpt at 7.50PM last night till 5.30AM this mornin.
worn out by the EL course.
i find it a waste of time.
seriously.
should the sch consider stopping the course and pay us back our money?

im itching to play ball.
ah crap!
PE's ON TML!
but my toe's bleeding.
who cares.
THE COURT, THE COURT!
soccer, netball, basketball, badminton, volleyball.
I'LL PLAY EVERYTHING!

this entry is so random.
but whatever.
i wna watch the haunted apartment on sat.
i wna go get something for my friend's bday this sat.
i wna go bugis and shop this sat.
I WANT TO WATCH THE MATCH ON NEXT WED.
hip hip horray!

im on my own now.

blogged at 11:55 PM

decided to set up a blog and sell my can't fit in or not worn items.

http://theclearanceoftherainlover.blogspot.com

SEE U THERE!

blogged at 5:00 PM

i want to watch The Haunted Apartment.
all those i asked said they were afraid of horror movies.
HAHS.

off shoulders are so nice.
heels look so gorgeous.
i wna go shopping.
save money ahs!

my break ends on tues.
the studying continues then.

blogged at 2:50 PM

shopping online seems so nice.
and i wna buy that off shoulder!
but wait, lets clear my own stuffs first.

ROARS.

you don't know me deep to say you love me.

blogged at 1:29 AM

something got over me.
HA HA HA HA HA.
wnt dental today.
it isn't really that nice cause i cant bite with my front teeth now.
HOW GOOD.

but who cares when i'm a greedy pig.
who eat and slp like no one's business.
i took some photos of charlotte but i'm so lazy tht i only uploaded SOME.
its tiring to look after kids.
especially when they start growing teeth.
thats your worst nightmare.
i got awaken up by charlotte in the wee hour this morning.
THRICE.
thats swt lil baby.



you taught me to be independent.
you thought me to be happier.

blogged at 11:56 PM

ITS OVER.
ITS REALLY OVER.
WHEEEEEEEES.

i'm so loving the fact that i can have another break!
anyway, i've to write fast.
the lap top's batt dying on me agains.
SCREW!

baby charlotte's over to stay.
and she's super cute.
she's slping nw.
photos in the night whn i come online again with an AC ADAPTOR.
screw this lap top tht runs dead so fast!

i didn't think cause i think im better this way.
to be numbed of everything.

blogged at 5:00 PM

my photo link's back again.
photos uploaded and all.
LOLS.

studying is so impt nw, but im slacking here.
im super tired nw.
super tiring!

i dont know hw to tell u.
we're people from two planet.
dont wait.
really.
im stuck in something tht irks me.

blogged at 3:54 PM

im super lazy.
come to think of it, im worst than a pig lahs.
was listing the examples to pentium just nw, thn i realise wht a pig i am!

in love with corrinne may's song!
super nice.
but i realise tong en's new song fit me better.
as in the lyrics do.
LALALALS.

beancurd.
slurps.
mom bought desert home!
charlotte's a lazy baby today.
everytime whn she comes back to gram's place from auntie cecilia's place.
she would slp like a log.
i wonder what auntie cecilia did to her.
LOLS.

went out to study awhile with pentium.
chem question.
history totally makes me so no mood to study!
anw, im off for my desert before my lap top batt dies on me.

its nw or never.
i really wish i hadn't know u.
so u wont treat me all so well and smash me so hard nw.

blogged at 11:05 PM

slacking my way through.
what an ass i am.
jolene's over to stay and she's darn adorable whn she wanted to slp last night.
HAHS.
nw, she's sitting on my bed reading aloud.
and the thing she say dont make sense!
lols.

went hg mall just nw.
bought my earpiece FINALLY.
thn, walk around before heading home.

last night when i was studying chem.
this lil girl came and wna sit with me.
so when im studying, she was drawing.
evidences later.
HAHS.

presenting my lovely godsis, JOLENE.

okays, i better get going to study.
if it were a moment of folly.
i dont know.
maybe, thats not what it was suppose to be.

i dont know who's calling my name.
and i think my memeories are fading.

blogged at 5:06 PM

slpt at around 1 plus in the mornin.
and i got so tired tht i had to postpone an hr later to meet clar.
NOW I TRULY UNDERSTAND WHY I LOVE HER TO DEATH.
AND I"LL BE SO LOST IF SHE"S NOT THERE!
studied.
we really studied.
maths maths and maths. (:

we were muching tidbits while studying.
HAHS. evidences later.
after tht came lunch time.
IM SO HONOURED.
cause CLAR COOKED FOR ME.
WHEEEEEEEEES.

so here's the pictures!

LUNCH TIME!




i did the sauce for the egg, thus my BIG face with it. HAHS.

THE FINAL PRODUCT!


see how clean our plates are!

FUN TIME!







thats all for our studying.
its tiring to study day and night.

thats my shelf of books!

i wna watch frostbite!
FROSTBITE FROSTBITE FROSTBITE!
someone pls bring me there.
PLS?

nothing like this

blogged at 6:00 PM

whn i was on the phone with clar last night.
i was telling her about steve irwin.
then i got to know more about it when i was reading the papers today.
a passive stingray, yet killed him.

felt a twitch in my heart when i rmb hw attached i was to his shows on animal planets.
but nw, he's no longer there.
he died for his passion.

anw, was suppose to be heading to clar's house in the mornin for studying.
but the heavy rained made mom ground me.
i woke up at 5.
all thanks to the lightning and thunder which got me frightened out of my wits and hid under the blanket.
come to think of it.
BRO made a fool out of me last night.
whatever is the bad omen thing.
he succeeded.

im still stuck at chapt 3 : Impact of WW1.
and i only have a few days left.
struggling and sturggling.
sheeeesh.

i want to lie on the open field in the night.
to gaze at the stars above me.
i want to walk on the sands in the night at the beach.
hand in hand with u.

its all nothing but illusion.
anw, the photo i promised.


blogged at 5:43 PM

200TH ENTRY!

hahs.
silly silly silly.
being silly is adorable.
i've been telling nelson tht!

went studyin in the mornin for about a few hours.
MATHS.
its a trouble sometimes, but i'll learn to love it.
YES, LOVE IT.

studying history nw.
the thing with mikhail gorbachev and his perestroika and glasnost.
is driving me mad!
too bad, im just gna read through it.
im picking chapt 3 to mug hard on.
and i think either chapt 1 or 2.
i dont know, and my list is in my room.
IM IN MY BRO'S ROOM.
weeeeeees.
blasting the speaker loud is nice.
cause my own speaker malfunctioned.
HAHS.

was talkin to BRO tht day about him lookin so alike his sis.
and i told him i dont look like my bro at all.
and he agreed.
LOLS.
true.
shall post one photo of me and my bro tml.
let the world judge if we look alike.
once when we were out, people thought we were bf and gf!
thats HILARIOUS.

anw, im gna go back to study and cont entertainin that BRO who's bored very easily.
HAHS, i think he knows who he is!

i feel LOVED.
silly is adorable silly.

blogged at 4:52 PM

seriously.
I NEED TO GET OUT OF MY HOUSE TO STUDY.
my home is not a good place to study in.
cause i've no control over myself when im at home.
i slp and slp.
and use the comp!
SHOOTS SHOOTS SHOOTS!

someone get me out?
clar's locked up at home.
CRIES-

i know its getting nearer and i dont wna panic right at the end.

SOMEONE.
PLS?

blogged at 3:06 PM

RWARRRRRRS.

bring me out of this and into your life.

blogged at 2:24 PM

i woke up only at 2 pm today.
WOW.
im not tired, but its my wisdom tooth doing everything.
its growing out of my gums and its irritating me.

wilson made me miss nasi lemak nw.
and when i was studying for pure geog paper on tues night.
i was telling wilson about plates.
and he told me there's always nasi lemak on the plates.
and when i was doing the question on plates on wed.
i thought about nasi lemak.
and i felt hungry.
LOLS.
uncle wilson ahs!

im hungry nw.
superb hungry.
after this entry.
its back to studying agains.
history, though its like on the last day of prelims.
but there's so much things to rmb.
YES.

i know my priorities well,
what u think about me isn't gonna affect me.
i've learnt something.
:)

blogged at 4:39 PM

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