♥ shan's.

Monday, October 16, 2006

LAST ENTRY

its officially the last entry while i go off mugging hard for my O's.
today's the 21 day to O lvl main papers.
having my o lvl practical on thurs.
im afraid because i've never done well for my practicals.
or to be exact, my physics practical.
i'm keeping my fingers crossed.

the haze is seriously getting worst.
the PSI reads 127 now.
and i need to go NIGHT STUDY!
have to get my doubts clear for English.
someone, please let it rain so it'll feel better.

O LEVEL EXAMS SCHEDULE :
19 OCT :
. ~~Combine Science; Physics & Chemistry Pratical - 10AM(1 hr 30 mins)~~
6 NOV :
. E maths paper 1 - 8AM(2 hour)
. Combine Humanities; Social Studies - 2PM(1 hr 30 mins)
7 NOV :
. Combine Science; Chemistry paper 2 - 8AM(1 hr 15 mins)
8 NOV :
. English paper 1 - 8AM(1 hr 45 min)
. English paper 2 - 10.15AM(1 hr 40 min)
. Combine Science; Physics paper 2 - 2PM(1 hr 15 mins)
9 NOV :
. Pure Geography paper 2 - 2PM(2 hr 15 mins)
10 NOV :
. E maths paper 2 - 2.30PM(2 hr 30 mins)
15 NOV :
. Pure Geography paper 1 - 4.30PM(1 hr 15 mins)
17 NOV :
. Combine Humanities; History Elective - 2.30PM(1 hr 30 min)
20 NOV :
. Combine Science paper 1(MCQ) - 8AM(1 hr)

IM FREE! (:

alrights, gottta go off and prepare.
before leaving home and meet my dinosaur bro for night study.

SEC 4s and 5s.
chiong!

i wish my guardian angel would guide me through my exams.
it sure will rights?

STEVEN , speedy recovery.
rmb, the court is yours to shine in!

EVERYONE take good care!
dont fall sick because of the haze yahs.

with love. (:

blogged at 3:43 PM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

the haze is getting from bad to worst.
but im hearing thunder now!
that's a good sign.
i'm waiting for the rain to come.
cause MY FLU IS GETTIN FROM BAD TO WORST TOO.
its irritating.
and i can't breathe properly.
my fan's blowing right at me.
so i'll feel better.
my room feels stuffy, cause my window's tightly closed.

studying transformation and im getting my basics first.
ROARS LOUD.
all the shears and all can wait.
im still at the very basic which is like reflection?
faggots.
im runnin out of time.

WENCHONG THE DINOSAUR IS ACCUSING ME.
of ps-ing him, leaving him to study all alone.
come on bro, i woke up at 2pm ystd.
and i woke up at 12pm today.
how to meet u up and study.
plus, today's not a nice day!
the haze lahs.
sry lahs bro.
we'll study together at night study.
don't accuse me anymore.
DINOSAUR!
ha ha ha.

anw, i think dinosaur's cute lehs.
i mean those friendly one.
not your typical tyranosaurous.
T-REX.
no no no.
BARNEY's a dinosaur too.

okays, enough of rubbish.
i think charlotte's coming over to stay next week or something.
I DONT KNOW.
but im gonna see her again later.
ohhhhs, that adorable baby.
SHE RECOGNISE ME.
(:

whats yours would definitely be yours.
whats not will never be.
this love wont bring u far.
the scar hurts more than anything.

blogged at 4:01 PM

the haze's back again.
and so is my flu.
PSI was at its highest at 116.

i broke new record again by waking up at 2PM.
tired.

the room feels stuffy.
ROARS.
becuase i roar, wenchong calls me a DINOSAUR.
since he's my brother.
HE'S ONE DINOSAUR TOO.
and he loves roaring recently.
im influencial in the bad way.

2nd day of relaxing.
rotting and all.
it feels so wrong.
gotta start studying again.
2 weeks before papers start.
i swear i'll sleep by 10 everynight and wake up at 6am.
if not, i'll be dozing off during my papers.
biological clock is very important.

lit a smile on my face.

"boyfriend" got injured while playin bball ystd.
and had stiches on his eyebrow cause he had a dumb collision with his friend.
he's clumsy.
but i don't understand why whn he's so skinny and he can be clumsy.
HAHS.
TAKE GD CARE LAHS ALEX YEO.

blogged at 12:08 AM

Friday, October 13, 2006

ceremony's over.
conflicts RESOLVED.
hip hip horray!
that scene was touching, true friends will never leave each other.

during the slide presentation, our class photos were missin.
and hey, its like the last day of sch already.
where's the class photos we ordered?
uncle zhiming??

so here comes the photos.

the end.
this school with memories.

everyone has a guardian angel.
mine is still far far away.

blogged at 10:45 PM

we've been through everything together.
OBS, harsh PTMs.
everything.
grad's ceremony is later on.
those heartfelt feelins seems a lil miserable.

the bonds we made for these 2 full years.
and the bond with the guys i made.
oh come on, who else can be my best bball khaki in sch!
its those bunch of jokers.
WILSON, YANGJUN, CEWEI, TEKMENG, CK, NORMAN, BENNY BOY.
not to mention, standing by me whn i'm at my worst!

LYNNIIE, CHUANLIAN, MICH TAN, WEILING, RACHEL, CLAR, DEBBIE, EVAN, JIA MIN, THENGBOON, KWAIHOONG.
the usual netball sessions.
against teachers.
u guys were worried that my ankle couldn't take the running.
but u guys agreed to let me run.
the best moments in school was us playing netball.

had so much fun throughout my 2 years.
the ups and downs.
arguements and all.
but its never bad to know such nice bunch of people.

4 dil's always united in bullying teachers.

this unbreakable bond.
laughters, tears, sorrows.
we endure them all together.

could this be resolve?
its the last day we'll be together as a class.
pls?
no one mean anything.

those bunch of jokers.

blogged at 1:05 AM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

tried watching tokyo drift ystd.
but dad's dvd wouldn't work, bro's laptop refuse to read the disc.
THR GOES MY OPPORTUNITY TO WATCH IT.
irritating.

woke up late today, rushed to sch.
only to skip lesson in the end.
blame CLARISSA LING.
she decided not to go, so i join along and did physics at mac.
chuanlian and serena was thr too.

tml's the last day of school.
officially.
we need not attend school and all.
the graduation ceremony had been on my mind since last night.
after all these happen, will we stand together and have a group hug?
its puzzling me and chuanlian.
well, im sure i'll enjoy myself tml.
with camera flashing, dazzling smiles and all.
BE NEAT.

3rd night of late night affair, its horrible.
sleepy but yet u have to perservere on.
i can do it.

SING THE PRAISES PEOPLE.
the haze is gone!
can play ball le.
no no, i mean after my O's.
20 nov, 20 nov!
i cant wait.

off to do maths again.
toodles!

the spirit that never dies.

blogged at 4:48 PM

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

MY LATE NIGHT STUDY AFFAIR.
3am to be precise.

FILLED WITH SCANDALS.

this love wont take u far.
it'll only slow u down and get u scarred.

blogged at 5:56 PM

Monday, October 09, 2006

if someone would take my laptop away, i'll be so happy.
its tempting and i dont know why i couldn't control the temptations.
gone were the days where i could just get myself controlled and use it on weekends.
but no longer now.

heys, its just 28 days to NOV 06!
thats where the main papers all start.
i havent start on anything to be precise.
5 subjects and all left not touched.
there's only 24 hours a day.
take away the no of hours i need to slp.
i'm left with only 14 hours.
2 hours in school.
so im left with 12 hours.
1 hour for travelling time.
11 hours left.
2 hours for my 3 meals.
9 hours.
i spend 2 hour in front of the tv.
7 hours.
FAGGOTS.

im gna sleep less.
im gna study more, going to school is wasting time.
cause i spend 1 hour travelling to and fro.
this slacking has to stop!

im angry with myself for being an ass now.
PURE GEOG, COMB SCIENCE, E MATHS, COMB HUMANITIES, ENGLISH.
I CAN DO IT!

its written on everywhere shan.
this struggle, this battle.
its mind over temptations.
come on, u know u can do it alrights!
FOCUS.

blogged at 9:54 PM

on my diary i wrote.
29 days to O LVL MAIN PAPERS.

on my diary i wrote.
CHEMISTRY - ZHONGHUA Paper 1
E MATHS - 5 SETS OF REVION EXCERSISES + '06 JUNE PAPERS
PURE GEOG - 7 SETS OF PAPER 1(MCQ)
SOCIAL STUDIES - LIST OF SEQ
HISTORY - REVISION BOOKLET OF SBQ AND SEQ ON RUSSIA

oh come on shan.
exactly how many days have u left with?
no, not 5o.
its only 29!
is that what u want?
slacking ur way through weekends.

u're in the BATTLEGROUND
there's no way to back off.
ITS NOW OR NEVER.

rmb, ur dream is ur motivation!

blogged at 12:18 AM

Friday, October 06, 2006

1 week of block lessons are over.
another week to endure and its self study all the way till O's come.
mdm woo was happy that i wnt today and she kept callin my name.
RAHHHS.

its 31 days to O's.
a month more to go!
im not prepared at all come to think of it.

i'll quit comin online and study real hard!
and im saying this again, xf's prob is not my prob.
he can so go jump off a building and i dont care.
take it or leave it.

okays, im off to study before gng out.
HEYS, its latern festival okays!
and HAPPY BDAY HANYONG (my good disciple!)

im ending off my entry with this.

we'll be girlfriends for life.
LOVE U IRAH!

no more entries till o's is over.
lets hope i'll abide by this.
so tata!
THERAINLOVER would be back on 20 NOV.

blogged at 3:54 PM

Thursday, October 05, 2006

wnt to sch today.
im not all lazy afterall.
(:
physics lesson is boring.
writing of formulas for 1 hour 10 mins.
55 mins for other sch paper.
skipped SS.
gutless people who talked behind people's back.
oh come on, say it right in front of me then.

clar came over and studied.
she's lazy.
12 maths sum and she's tired of continuing.

science science science.
chiong ahs!
didn't attend night study today.
shall concentrate on science tonight.

some photos i promised to upload.

i feel like a kid when mdm woo gave us a worksheet.
with pictures and all.
and i drew my "BF" on the history SBQ paper.

the haze is back.
horrible it seems this time.
i wish u recovered and not get sick again.
take good care of urself steven!

i've plans for my after O's life.
it seemed nice.
perfect, just the life i wna have.
indulge in running on the court.
09 is comin back!
HORRAY, i can't wait for O's to end fast.
science practical is comin back on 19 OCT.
and its 32 days to my BIG EXAMS.
faggot.

this aint gna slow me down.
my crave, my bravery.

blogged at 6:43 PM

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

im still fightin a battle.
no, its many many battles.
dont have to name them all out.

my blog's stirring something in class.
i don't give a damn.
my blog = my say.
what are u gna do to me?
surround me up in a corner and bash me up?
say what u like.
and im telling this right in ur face.
IM NOT DIGGIN ANY PAST OUT.
why are u so bother about what i wrote on my blog?
afraid that i'll put u in bad light?
u go around calling people loser.
but u're one big loser.

i chose not to trust anyone anymore.
freaking liars who say.
i'll always be there.
if u're, u wont think tht way okays.
u'll understand what im gng through.
but i don't need u to understand anymore.
i'll just take it that i didn't know u at all.

i wont hide what i wna say from nw on.
u think i'll give a damn about what u think?
i aint ur average girl who get push around.
i've my mind of my own.

steven, get well soon!
cheer up!
i know u're still in pain.
so take care friend.

blogged at 10:18 PM

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

mom and dad's anniversary ystd.
so we had steamboat.
the haze was crazy.
getting sick soon.

the photos later on another day.
i need to go off and study soon.
gng night study later.
5 hours of maths @ mac just nw.
clar's my new teacher.
who teaches maths.

i know u saw it when u came by.
that is the truth.
i plucked my courage and wrote everything here.
maybe to u, i may be fabricating facts.
but those are all the words deep down.
xf, it was the insecurities that made me said no.
do u know how i felt whn so and so told me u owe them money?
i wnt, why?
if u could have the money and the thought to buy me a belated present.
why don't u have the money to return them?
this makes me totally insecure.
i feel i can't depend on u at all.
right now, u have the ability to buy cards.
so why can't u pay them back?
i may have rejected u, but deep in u're still a friend i wna help.
i pulled u out whn u were sad.
and i know i pushed u back in.

we'll all go our own way thn.
u made me feel like a fool sometimes.
to be frank with u, u were the 2nd guy who made me cry besides we know who.

i know he'll see this.

aint ur princess, aint ur prisoner.
this struggle, this battle.
FOCUS.

blogged at 2:37 PM

Sunday, October 01, 2006

the beehoon goreng at THE PRATA HOUSE @ THOMSON ROAD is nice.
the prata tastes like biscuit though.
not my type of prata.
but the pricing is better than jalan kayu.
HOWEVER, the prata @ jalan kayu taste better.

food fiesta.

the lack of motivation, the lack of drive.
probably, its called karma.
exams for sec 1 to 3s starts on tml.
BEST WISHES to them.
hope xm rmbs what i just taught him.

2 hours of pure geog, 1 hour recess and another 2 hours of chem.
FREAK.
dismissal at 1pm.
dreaful lahs!
subj for night study tml is EL.
don't think i'm going.
or rather, i'll go study out with others.
staying home is really making me a lazy ass.

maths on tues.
2 hours of them.
should i or should i not.
maybe i should get my probability solved.
don't know.

this whole week is drainin me out badly.
i can't slp well in the night.
getting very pissed off easily.
no, its not PMS.
having this feeling its called stress.
faggots are those who invented examinations!

its only 36 days left to O LVL MAIN PAPERS.
1 month and 6 days.
i don't have any time to slack through.
freak.
FOCUS SHAN.
FOCUSSSSSSSSSSS!
u know u wna do well.
u know u wna prove him wrong.
u can achieve more than what he thinks u can achieve.

i hate him for givin those demoralising comments.

O LVL PAPERS begin on NOV 6
and end on NOV 20.
its just 3 weeks of suffering.
after that, i can party all i want.
cruise, genting, KL.
whatever.

im undergoing a no life period nw.
hyper no life.
STUDY and STUDY.

FOCUS SHAN.

behind these eyes were the tears u won't get to see.
everytime u made me a princess, u made me a prisoner too.
im slave no more.

blogged at 11:26 PM