chilll.
yeahs, i very much need to do that.
and i very much wish i could numb myself somehow?
no, not by alcohol. - I FREAKING DONT DRINK.
neither by clubbin - I FREAKIN HATE CROWDS.
so i do it by blasting out my music.
starting reading the books i borrowed ystd.
and 1 of them was Five People You Meet In Heaven by Mitch Albom.
i got hooked onto it immediately.
lets have some sentence from there.
"No life is wasted. The only time we waste life is the time we spend thinking we are all alone."
so somehow i USED to waste my time.
how funny.
just now, when it started rainin.
i prayed that it'll get heavier.
and so then, i can walk in it.
but it never get any bigger.
beacause the rain stopped.
those were the days i spent being silly waiting.waiting for something i know would never come true.everyone thought it would.but eventually it never.we became best of friends.now i wouldn't want to wait anymore.and i knew this is yet another dream.where it'll be reality when i've woken up.i tried to smile to pull it off.but somehow, it looks fake.my mom even sense my agony.
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