GUESS WHAT?
the seperator came off on its own when i woke up this mornin!
i was rejoicing in my half awake mood.
b'cause it meant i could bite.
almost anything and i'd no longer feel moody!
HAHAHA!

i no longer have to stare at the tibits i bought ystd noon.
and heave a long sigh.
HORRAY! (:
im a happy kid, whatever.

clar actually called me up just now,
like what a huge surprise.
i thought she'd forgotten all about me.
but we talk less than i think 5 mins?
because im watchin tv prog.

but her phonin me makes my ring tone sound.
thankfully she's not by my side when it rang.
if not she'll say the same thing again!

there was once when clar and I went mall to fix her earstud.
then we were like talkin talkin talkin.
then suddenly.....
TOKYO DRIFT RINGTONE SOUNDED.

me : wait ahs, i answer phone first.
CLAR STARES AT ME.
after i hang up.
clar : WHY U STILL USING THIS RINGTONE?! CAN CHANGE OR NOT?
shan : nice and loud enough what. don't want to change lahs.
CLAR GAVE ME THE ARGGGHHHH LOOK.

hahs, but i wasn't carrying my phone that day.
i was using my BRO's phone.
and we both have the same ringtone -because i sent him the song!
i always disturb clar with that sound.
(:

im totally touched with what terry did for me!
he actually went around and ask if injection on gum hurts.
SO CUTE!
a lot said it didn't.
but for now, im going to stay optimistic first.
i dont even know what my dentist is going to do to me.

i'll be fine. -i hope.

blogged at 10:50 PM

back then,
i was totally excited about my BRACES.
because it meant i would have nice straight teeth.
the ordeal was crazy.
with me losing weight because i couldn't bite.
and that meant i would eat lesser.

the braces got me ulcers in my mouth.
dental appt is like battle witht the dentist.
where i'd squeeze myself whenever she hurt my mouth so badly.
weeks after weeks.
month after months
year after years.

and i thought after today's appt.
I"LL BE ABLE TO HAVE THEM OUT.
but the worst news i ever heard was on today's appt.
my dentist is goin to insert a metal implant on my last tooth on the bottom.
and she would not be taking my braces out for the time being.
plus, she wants me back at the NDC next week.

my whole mind went blank.
and sentence after sentence came out.
"SHE'S NOT TAKING MY BRACES OUT?!"
"SHE'S INSERTING METAL IMPLANT IN MY MOUTH?!"
"SHE WANTS TO SEE ME AGAIN AT THE CLINIC NEXT WEEK?!"
fear that is overtook me after the whole appt ended.

i kept questionin my mom.
on what she meant by metal implants.
and what would she do?
and lastly the big fear came.
WOULD SHE INJECT MY GUMS?

i know this cant be compared to those who extracted their teeth.
but i really had enough of my braces.
certain times i got pissed off by them.
because i cant eat.
im a glutton.
I LOVE EATING.

and now,
when i thought the ordeal and battle with STRAIGH TEETH is over.
it announced to be an extended battle.
by actual fact, after today's appt.
the braces will be gone on the next appt.
which on my dental appt card wrote
17/4/07 2.30PM DR -- L5 (30 mins) DEBAND.
but now?
dreams shattered.
i have another appointment on next week.
which they'll mail/phone me about the time and date.

i still am stuck at the thought of what she'll do to me.
and what i detest most.
NO INJECTIONS ON MY GUMS.

i aint kickin a fuss over my minor implant.
im only worried.
because i dont know what's the procedure like!

im really worried. ):

blogged at 11:23 PM

i was awake at 9 with the intentions of goin for a run.
but the sun was too strong by then.
and my stomach felt super hunrgy.
so the run was burst like bubbles.
tml.
this time i'll wake up at 8am.
and i've DENTAL APPT at 3.45Pm tml.

so i went out with dino today.
with no one being late.
we were both on time.
like always, we argue, GOSSIP.
and tell him what i'd always wna tell him.
the company was great.
and he's such a joker lahs.

but he wanted to go bugis, which i didn't.
so we went seperate ways.
him goin to find "beckham".
while i meet up with smartie.
borrowed a book.
went to the bank with him.
i drew money out! ): -heartache lahs!
then off home.
I WALKED HOME IN THE RAIN FROM HOUGANG GREEN!
i kinda love it.

OREA CHEESECAKE, CHOCOLATE TRUFFLE, BLACKFOREST.
i want them so much.

i've got the thoughts straightened out.
in which a letter im about to write.
but i still dont know if i should pass it to him or not.
dillemma because of new circumstances.
and in his eyes, im very fine.
very happy.
but actually im not.
i know he kinda sense it, but i ignored it totally.
and said i was okays.

all penned down in words.

blogged at 10:19 PM

TANK - 专属天使

我不会怪你 对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏 好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽 而你纤细善良
怎能让你 为了我被碰伤

小小的手掌 厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安 的夜晚
不敢想的梦想 透过你的眼光
我才看见 它原来在前方

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁 (我身旁)
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占

没有谁能取代你在我心上 (我心上)
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

小小的手掌 大大的力量
我一定也会像你 一样飞翔 (一样飞翔)
你想去的地方 就是我的方向
有我保护 笑容尽管灿烂

没有谁能把你抢离 我身旁 (我身旁)
你是我的 专属天使
唯我能独占

没有谁能取代你在我身上 (我身上)
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
Woo~

要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
Oh 绝望的以为
生命只有黑夜

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁 (我身旁)
你是我的 专属天使
唯我能独占

没有谁能取代你在我身上 (我身上)
拥有一个 专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望 Woo Wu Woo Ho~ Wu~ Ho

i really don't know what else to do.
what else to say.
it always turns out to be this way.
and i had been playing this song since i was online just now.

im going out tml.
with dino.
he needs to buy clothes.
while, i'll just take the chance to walk around.
and talk to dino.

things just gets stuck in there.
and sometimes, it hurts so badly.

blogged at 12:38 AM

I was dead tired which resulted to the waking up at 2PM routine.
no morning suns today.
but only heavy heads and flu and cough.
i reckon i caught the cough from jolene.
she's been down with cough since ney year started.
PLUS, i feed her ystd with my chopsticks.

okays, thats so out of point.
never mind about being sick.
i felt like eating the chocolate chip cookies from subway.
the same like famous amos.
but at a cheaper rate!

I wna go catch a movie.
which i hadn't since very long.
and i didn't watch epic because yah's not free to meet me at the last min.
plus bf told me NOT to watch epic.
he recommended norbit.

my bro and I wna watch protedge , letters from Iwo Jima.
on addition my bro wna catch ghost rider.
while i wna watch hannibal on 1st march.
hahs, no one's free anyway.
so forget it bahs.

i like the idea of getting tired.
so i'll sleep very soon and not have any chance to think of anything.
if i can do it in the past, i can do it now too.
move on.

the clouds surrounded the sky.
total darkness but on closer look.
i saw a line of light glowing.

blogged at 4:35 PM

BLACKJACK SESSION!

I kinda like this photo.

my godsis is an emo kid!

cousin carmen and me.

told u my godsis is emo.

okay, i look super tired here.

i need to find things to do b'cause im BORED.

uncle keong with his precious CHARLOTTE.

my the other family -GODMOM, GODPA, KEEFE, JOLENE.

his first :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAYS!

im nursing a flu since morning.
my nose itched since i was awake.
terible.
and im completely tired out now.
anw, there's suppose to be another 2 photos.
but they refused to get uploaded.

i really wish u didn't tell me anything.
who could i trust?
none anymore.

we'll go seperate ways;

blogged at 11:43 PM

i wrote and entry.
but the publishing failed.

words dont replace anything.
i wish i weren't dumb from the start.

AHHHHH!

blogged at 1:12 AM

i look at the books stuffed under my table.
and i told myself i wna study hard.

when i was bathing, geog suddenly pop up in my mind.
all the plate tectonics and weathering.
SIGHS.

i wna learn french like my bro did.
i wna do well like my bro.
and go for exchange prog like my bro did.
unknowingly, i want to follow my bro's footstep.

bro wants to go holiday soon.
and i heard its hongkong or something.
I WNA GO TOO!
anyone wna come along?
its a no PARENTS trip.
because its a trip my bro and his friend wna go to.
so they're gatherin people.

meanwhile from what i just heard.
im going to Kluang in M'sia in march.
its either around 10 march onwards.
after posting.
and after march hols.
my dad says we'll stay in JB for a day.
then to kluang the other.
i've relatives there.
my dad's cousin which is my granny's sister's childeren.
DISTANT rights.
i know and i only saw them in a blue moon.
the last time was on granny's funeral.

i get to get out of singapore would do!
:D

guess what, im still readin my tuesdays with morrie.
i watch tv too often and i neglect the poor book.
i dont have anymore books to read!
i think i'll exchange books with steven.
not a bad idea.

i felt cheated.
none other by u.

blogged at 11:25 PM

im DATED on tml.
so great.
loves my gf so much man!

and so, im meeting yah tml for a movie.
plus some window shopping.
EPIC!
here i come!

clar wants to watch hannibal.
not bad, we've the same minds.
scare our asses off.

gram, and my all my 2 aunties came over.
mahjong.
while i play with charlotte.
she sticks to me like glue today!
i bet its because im wearin back my glasses!
hahs, okays so lame.
she even refuse to go home!
as if my home was her home.
but it soon will be.
she's gna be my half sister on march 21st.
her bday.
mom's gna take her in as a god daughter.
GOOD, I LIKE IT.

ps// im goin to disturb clar tml after my movie! :D

as i walk on the streets, i see ur shadows.

blogged at 10:37 PM

day 2 isn't as fun as before.
there wasn't the mood at all.
AT ALL.
yes, apart from the kai nian fan we had every year.
everything was super different.

i hadn't had a good night slp.
because charlotte's anklet rings when she flips and turn.
then she woke up at 7 plus.
that means i woke up by then too.
so my mom could make milk for her.

then it was totaly bore at gram's place.
godpa and family left early for my godGRANDPARENT'S place.
then carmen and her family went to her mom's sis place.
BORING~
no blackjacks session.
but some dai dee session with my cousin and uncle (my mom's cousin).
while my BRO, COUSIN, AUNTIE play mahjong.
but its more MAHJONG over cards.

PENTIUM!
see, they bully me alrights?
MAHJONG, my fatal point can?!
so u better hurry bring me along when u play.

sigh loud loud.
and i hadn't had dinner yet.
i only had rubbish since mornin when i woke up.
nothing but JUNKS.
i need a meal now!
im very very hungry.

TML WILL SO BE A BORE AGAIN.
rubbish.
photos.....

im on my way...

she's the reason why im smilin all the time.



dress as promised. my cousin SHERYL.

i know i look silly, but nice what.

she hides behind me b'cause she think she has a big face.

see! same size lahs. but i think im still smaller.

and im ending off with my fav photo of the day. :D


TRUCKLOADS OF LOVES PEOPLE.

blogged at 11:18 PM

PENTIUM! here's what i figured to wear.

like usual, i fool around. (:

cousin carmen, people used to say we look alike. do we still look alike?

carmen, carloyn(ELEPHANT!), me.

don't doubt, we're only a year apart.

and i'll end off with my fav photo of the day. (:


THERE'LL BE MORE TML!
i feel the love around;

p.s/ CHARLOTTE'S STAYIN OVER AT MY PLACE NOW! :D

blogged at 11:49 PM

im fine now.
im better now.

thanks to the beings out there who showed they cared.

and im really sorry for making pentium worried sick.

:D

blogged at 9:48 PM

everyone has 3 sides.
the PISSED OFF side.
the HAPPY side.
the SAD side.

yes, u may say i dont know how to control them.
but u were wrong.
i SWALLOW MY PRIDE more than u DRINK UR WATER.

u may say im a CRYBABY.
because i only know how to cry.
BUT what u dont know was how HORRIBLE it all was.
so go ahead and call me one.
i dont care.

i would have my reasons when im pissed and angry.
i dont get angry or pissed for nothing.
reasons are there.
for the sake that its reasons.

tonight, im totally angry.
with my valid reasons.
i chose to stay in my room and not eat dinner.
starve myself to make myself feel better.

i even thought of walkin out of home.
but its just way wrong if i do so.

i chose to off my phone and not hear anything.
by blasting my MP3 so loudly i could only hear the bass.
for my reasons.
for the respect.

blogged at 7:22 PM

IM EVEN MORE PISSED NOW.

why?
i walked in the drizzle to get 2 packets of food home.
FROM AMK.
2 bus in 1 hours time with no tranfer rate.

i walked in the rain home.
FINE.
and i got no help when i opened the door.
SCREW MY BRO OKAYS.
i did help him everytime he got home alrights.
still say till i didn't.
GO DIE.

and my mom was angry because i showed black face.
thats because i was forced to do things i didn't like at all.
would u be happy if it was u?

my bro said me.
why can't i do something for mommy?
try getting forced everytime but gets no thank u at the end.
and get this,
I BOUGHT LUNCH JUST NOW OKAYS?
and i didn't even have enough money for my own food that i've to share.

i have no money.
im broke like a beggar.
and i've to swallow my pride.

how f up can things be?
okays, this is the first time im so ever posting a f word in my blog.
im fucking not happy.
what can u do?

ANGRY LAHS.
come nearer to me and i'll bite u totally.

blogged at 6:41 PM

PISSED PISSED PISSED lahs.
my oh so good mom WANTS me to go to my auntie's house at AMK.
just to collect her vegetarian food and something COOKED.

i went point and bought lunch because she wants me to.
now, she wants me to go AMK.
I DONT WNA GO LAHS.

i rmb, when i was on my bed in the mornin.
my auntie called.
and told my mom to collect because there's no place in her fridge anymore.
so my mom gladly say.
"okays, i'll call audrey to pick it up from ur place later"
piang!
im still on my bed and i didn't say i want or not lohs.

do i have a choice?
do i have the rights to choose?
obviously my mom has the final say.

and im dead broke alrights.
super broke.
im eating into my own money already lahs.
and she thinks the money she gave me will last till eternity.
yeahh rights.
15 bucks, how long do u wna me to last it till?
i scrimp and save.
but still, i had to eat rights?

i've atm card and i cant withdraw money.
and seriously, she hadn't put in the 68 bucks i used from my account.
to pay for the internet and my bro's phone bill.
AHHHHHHHS.

kill me lahs.

whenever i said i wna buy a flops.
she'd say no.
because i'd more than enough shoes.
yeah rights.

who was the one that went on cruise and bought nothing for me?
who was the one that bought SCHROLL (whatever) shoes?
who was the one that bought NIKE / ADIDAS pants for himself?
where's mine?
i only had FOOD.
and i dont like some at all.

ANGRY LAHS.

come near me and i'll BITE u hard!
i mean it.

screw my bro for havin to go collect his JERSEYS NOW.
why now? why today!
shit lahs.

blogged at 4:22 PM

im laughin at my fringe.
because its short that it stands!
KILL ME!

its not growin much and CNY is comin!

):

clar still hadn't replied.
SIGH OUT LOUD.

its another CNY without granny.
im still gettin used to it everytim im at granny's place.
where i dont see her at her usual place on the sofa.
and images will just flash past.
like how i believed she'll be fine and recover soon.
but that never came lahs.
and i was preparing for exams that time.
tragic.

over the years, i'd been through a lot.
seen through a lot.
changed alot.
but im glad i take things easier now.
i dont harp on things like i always do anymore.
look forward is what i can do.

when a friendship's broken, i'll try to mend it.
but if it's way awkward for us all.
its better to let it work on its own.
and i believe things will always come to a good end.
(:

i felt like thankin my friends who made me who i am today.
and for breakin down my used to be there defence wall.
:D

MUCH LOVES;

blogged at 11:03 PM

RWARRRRRS.

i feel like msgin clar and disturb her now.
so mean rights.

i feel like goin to the beach now.
and i dont think im goin back holy on tml.
kinda meaningless to return ehs?

mdm woo's not there.
i miss ah woo.
and i wna her to be happy that i got a B for EL.
when i always scored F9.
without ah woo, life's so bored.

i miss MIKI -clar's cute dog.

I WNA PLAY WITH MIKI.
if not, if ur dog is friendly.
i'll love him/her so.

ahhh, i miss maine's sable!

blogged at 3:13 PM

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY.

uh huh, for the couples.
its a special day to get together or whatsoever.
but to SINGLES, i think its a stupid occasion because...
IT'S YET ANOTHER DAY ONLY WHAT!
so lame.

anw, steven woked me up for the 2nd time in a row.
in consecutive days.
i bet my mom's thankin him in silent.
i found myself asleep till 1 plus PM everyday.
and sleepin only at 2-3AM everyday.
congrats and this so needs to be changed.

went NTUC with mom when i didn't eat anything.
and my mom was great.
super great.
she bought a 10KG rice, a caron of mandrain oranges.
a bottle of cookin oil.
a pineapple.
and a huge packet of tissue papers.
plus 3 packet of chicken stocks.
the trolley was at its heaviest!
and i pushed it home.

i think point needs to revamp again.
and place lots more of slopes.
HAHAS.
and i lost a nian gao on our way home.
bet it drop somewhere when i was goin up and down the curb.

charlotte became my v day date.
because we went to gram's place today.
and i had pathetic dinner there.
which is equals to...
im very hungry now!
ROARS!

it must be me that's too naive.
that i chose to believe in u right from start.
but i guess it was just a dream.
the trust would fade.

blogged at 11:42 PM

i think my bill will go so high this month.
still rmb last mnth i only sent like 400++ msg.
and im already like 550++ now?
now till the 21st is still a while to spend.
NO MORE SMS!

i tried before where my phone completely stays silent the whole day.
no sms, no phone calls.
nothing!
thats because no one's dating me out.
no one's free.
but who cares.
im happily rottin at home!

JAE sent late last night.
i pray.
i really could only pray now.

suddenly, i've craves for ICE-CREAM!
my icekimo is renovating NOW.
how awful!
and this sat is reunion dinner at 3rd aunt's place.
i heard that there's popiah, sharkfins, abalone.
NOT BAD!
at least it tasted better than last year's SO NOT NICE'S STEAMBOAT.

I WANT COOKIES AND CREAM ICE CREAM!
someone?

hope pentium recovers fast in time for his match on wed.
i teased him to spent v day with his team mates and be gay.
hoho, i know its evil!
SPEEDY REOVERY PENTIUM!

anw, this is just to make CLARISSA LING happy.
I LOVE CLAR!
because she treats me food here and then.
because she loves me too - maybe a lot lesser now because of CG!
because she USED HER FIRST PAY CHECK TO TREAT ME ICECREAM!
and because she brings me out to shop!
but nonetheless we make each other angry at times.
hahs, if not how can we ever get so close?

i need to go shoppin this week.
to get my camisole.
if not i dont have new clothes for CNY day 1.
till now, i only have new dress for CNY day 2.
cousins and i agreed to wear dress on that day.
FEMINE. (:
CNY day 3 should be spendin at my godparent's place.
playing cards.
chillin out.
and most impt rot.
ask me out! then i wont rot!

this entry is super random.
i dont know why.

blogged at 2:51 PM

HOKAY.

im so not gonna think about it anymore.
the more i think.
the more dui i felt.
so think about it NOT.

its all a question mark that i post to myself.
that i find no answers to them.
questions left not answered.
it's a mystery.
thats it.

the weather now is super nice!
very cloudy and sunny at the same time.
WHEEEEEEEES!

CLAR is so not free next week!
i couldn't even get a date with her to get my wallet.
and maybe buy myself a white camisole.
rots BIG TIME.
hahs, i guess she'll start telling me again.
"I'VE A DATE ON THURS!!"
spank u girl!

im waiting for my bro to come home soon!
and fast.
im so bored.
very bored.
he's so busy.
EUGENE snatched him from me to go pay for the jersey downpayment fee!
yawns!

see the good scenery i have.
wna move in and be my neighbour?
sunrise, nice weather, moon viewing.





i admit this fall got me all bruised up.
maybe all i know is to sit there lookin at my wounds.
but i'll be fine one day.
and that day will come soon.
i'll live with it.
and work harder in the future.

blogged at 3:33 PM

strangely, I still feel disappointed in myself.
but I couldn't seemed to find the answers for everything.
got the courses that i wanted to attend sorted out.
though i hadn't applied through the JAE.
tml.

although I may not be the worst.
but definitely, this is the worst I've ever done.
kill myself.

time is what i needed to pass the hurdle in me.
foolish.

the feeling goes on and on.
shit.

blogged at 11:59 PM

I'm fine now.
thanks so much everyone!

chuanlian, kwaihoong, lynniie, mich, clar, thengboon.
or know as the clique who sat around me during the result.
CHUANLIAN for being there when i opened the slip.
KWAIHOONG for the consoling.
CLAR for accompanying me and treating me ICE CREAM.

I love my lil sis so much.
she gave me a big big hug before she left for band.
and she was all along beside me.
LOVES HER TO BITS.

not to mention pentium.
who msged me and told me to be strong.
and msged me till i feel better.

COACH JONATHAN!
omg, he made me feel so relieved.
called him up and despite rushin to his pri sch team's match.
he called me and cont talkin to me.
and when he was in the bball court in sch.
he saw me whn i stood at the door of the hall and waved to me!
he's the best already lahs.
and he owes me my black pepper crab.

yt for listenin to the phone and consoling me.
he always seen and hear the worst side of me.
i dont know why too.
but who cares!
he's the best friend i ever can find.
and the cheer up msg he sent.

ZEJUN!
for calling me up and asked if im okay.
and tell me i'll be all fine.
and that she'll be there when i need someone.
(:

steven for supporting me and telling me i can do it
before the result is being known.

jie for the concern.
terry for being there.

I may not get what I hoped for.
but I wont stare into the spaces and cry once more.
once is enough.
and from this.
i'll pick myself up and fight stronger for the future.

im stronger now then before. (:
the disappointment stays but im moving on.

blogged at 11:29 PM

I had a very nice talk with terry last night.
its all those catching up which people usually do.
and not to mention, I confided in him.
once my bro, he's always my bro!
terry said he's gna move and be my neighbour in 2 years time.
cause I've excellent scenery from my room.
then when I'm bored, he'll come and accompany me.
HAHAS, I was real bored last night.
so ended up bro and I was like talkin this kind of things.
pure lame.

I've learnt that the environment does do a part in changin me.
as in my point of view.
I used to tell friends around me,
that I don't like CNY since granny left us 2 years ago.
and it's incomplete because she's no longer here.
but the trip to Chinatown got me feelin everything's just like the past.
where I love and enjoy so much.
I'm going CHINATOWN again next week!
with dad and momsie again.
It's very nice to be in there!
trust me, because I hate CNY.

godma asked me last night bout tml's release of results.
I said I didn't dare to think about it.
that's rights, don't ask me to think.
because the cosequence is at your own cost.
LOLS.
the more I think, the more I get scolded by people.
I want to be happy.
I want to keep smiling like I always do. (:

pentium woke me up at 6 plus this mornin.
when I slept only at 2 plus AM.
hahs.
and guess what i replied?
"and u woke me up now when I slept only at 2. :( "
hahs, and I made him feeling so guilty.
OMG, I'm so evil!
but everyone that know me would know that i'll definitely be able to sleep back.
(:

BAHHHHS,
v day and CNY is so close.
the confusion of mood for the festival.
HAHS.

i feel like going for a jog later.
LOLS, what a joke.

Sometimes u cannot believe what u see,
u have to believe what u feel.
and if u're ever goi to have other people trust u,
u must feel that u can trust them too - even when u're in the dark.
even when u're falling.

blogged at 3:23 PM

after a day of kids-sitting, im all tired and achin now.
KIDS ....
hahs.

it was yet another not at home for the whole day ystd.
I went chinatown.
and the mood was totally there.
I WNA GO THERE AGAIN NEXT WEEK!

kl got me realise somethings.
the complexity among humans.
it can so simple yet complexed.
i dont know.
but it certainly kept me thinking a lot.

the used to be that were no longer.
the yearning that ceased.

I still dont understand how things work out to be.
I still dont get it why things happen in a way.
people did say before that its all pre destined.
but it still got me thinkin so hard.

what was it like to be totally happy?
what was it like to come to know u've lost someone really dear?
what was it like when u realise u had to go?
what was it like when u waited in vain just for a lil something?

sometimes, its really that simple.
but, I find it so complicated.
and so difficult to explain.

hahs, so much thoughts went through my mind.
as i pen down my feelins in my diary last night.
silly it seems.
but it made me realise i was really silly in the past.

now I realise that I'm very blur too.

anw, here's a photo of what i took from my window just a moment earlier.
I love my room.
for i get to see good scenery.
i have sunrise in the morning.
cloud viewin in the bright afternoon.
moon viewing in the night when the skies are clear.


within the areas, i searched.
but in ended up in vain.

blogged at 10:22 PM

yes, I'm a good girl today.
though I've already completed the video.
somehow, I couldn't burn it down in the DVD RW i bought.
suay lahs, what else.

I cleaned my room AGAINS.
da sao chu mahs!
so got to pull out my bed frame
and clean the dust out.
I collected a lot of dust,
no wonder I kept havin flu.
so lame.

then wiped the walls of my room.
and call it a day.

I'm goin out with momsie!
but I have to set aside the 12 bucks for corene.
the seoul garden meal I owed her.
and yeaps, dino still owes me mine!
hahas!
SAW THIS DINO?

result's out on fri.
crapshit, we've all expected the date anyway.
LOLS, so not surprise by it.
so be it.
2.30PM 9 FEB O LEVEL RESULTS RELEASED.

u made me felt so sweet last night. :D

blogged at 11:17 PM

I realise that I'm not plain blur.
BUT, super blur.
never in my life did I notice that I had a movie maker in my lappy.
plain dumb or what?
laughs it off man.

so, the video its on its way.
to meet the relatives soon!
maybe on charlotte's 1st bday.
that will be so so sweet!

I've loads of things to do in the upcoming week.
mainly the cleanin of my home and all.
and gettin outs.

Had to be over at godma's place on wed in the noon.
then maybe stay over till thurs if its late?
or maybe just go home in the evening when godma's home.
yeahs, u got it.
I'm there to look after the kids.
so they better behave before ....
alrights, I wont do anything to them.

drew myself my name today.
cause I had nothing better to do!

anw, catched the soccer match just now!
boy, the other team was playin offensive.
in the begining, they were like bats.
they were kickin like they dont know how to play soccer.
until they scored.
and played real football.
(:
the equaliser came late.
but it's a very nice goal!

and!
DAREN WON PSS2!
horray no 2.!

okays, goin to bed alrights.
I wna start switchin my bio clock.

TODDLES;

what lies beneath, is somethin u wont understand.
I aint someone whom u find and easily get real close to.
there's always a limit to everything.
i understand that its ur way of life.
but, im not comfortable with it at all.
thats why, i ignored u.
i dont wna give u wrong signs.
never.

blogged at 11:58 PM

I can stand on my own too!

I'm havin fun!

godma got ma the ESPRIT towel set.
she went on the staff sales day.
and I chose not to go with her.
but nvm, GUESS WHAT!
she got the towel in my FAV COLOUR.
GREEN GREEN GREEN!
i'm over the moon.


I guess not many knew charlotte was a premature baby.
she was born only when she's 8th month.
very tiny and small.
but now, we're all glad she's fine and CUTE.
and its gonna be MARCH 21 SOON.
charlotte's 1ST BDAY! :D

let's have a look.
PREMATURE DAYS.

NOW!


we're all glad.
and we should treasure. :D

sometimes, i ask myself.
is it worth doing so.
most of the time, its a yes.
but a part of it told me I was silly.
so what am i now?
should we go on?
or should i just say goodbye?

blogged at 11:45 PM

I LOVE MIKI! :D

blogged at 11:55 PM

[EDIT AT 2259]
my mom refuse to let me go out tml.
when clar jio-ed me to go BUGIS.
crap shit!
I need a new wallet lahs.
and retail therapy!

BUT, my mom refuse to let me go.
and I've nothin to do at home.
I only have Tuesdays with Morrie to keep my company.
and I've no more books to read.
):

blame the ankle.
blame myself for slippin at the stairs.
AHHHHHHHS, IM SO PISSED NOW.

please teleport me to the beach now!
or please beg my mom to let me go out.
):

[/EDIT]
no swelling, but the pain continue.
so no choice but had to wear my ankle guard.
ROTS.

Im sneezing too now.
how can!?
I'm coughin too.
shit lahs!

I want to go shopping.
to search for off shoulders and all.
BUT, I just couldn't find it everytime when im out.
how how how?
I WNA OFF SHOULDERS!
and, I wna buy a new mini's too!

anw, I've a very nice equation.
take a look.

SHAN + STAIRCASE = INJURED ANKLE.

smart rights.
I WNA GET OUT TO SHOPPIN!
ahhhhhhhs!

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blogged at 3:22 PM

since when had i never been tag as ACCIDENT PRONE?
never been off the list for once.

I did mention that i slipped and injured my ankle.
so much for goin out for the first time after home alone for so many days.

now, both my ankles are hurting badly.
with no swelling.
but the aching just keeps coming.

I was wondering just now.
if i tumble and roll down the stairs,
wouldn't I have to bandage both my ankles?
and walk with clutches?
I started laughin at it.

I dont feel a thing with my right ankle.
it's totally numb.
my left ankle is getting cranky.

ROARS.

I'm the girl who loves sitting by the beach watching the stars.
I'm the girl who loves quiet moments.
I'm the girl who loves the moments in the court.
I'm the girl who gets injured too easily.
I'm the girl who loves dog.
I'm the girl who loves the sun, the tan.
I'm the girl who gets injured from OBS.
I'm the girl who have a bad right ankle injury.
I'm the girl who wants perfection in her work.

sometimes, things just wont go what u wish they would.
I avoid them somehow.
and wish I knew the answers to how to settle them.
I avoid BGR for fear I'll get hurt all over again.
I avoid my ex who msgs me so much.
Face the music shan.

SHIT.

blogged at 1:13 AM

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