& on april fools day.these few days wasn't easy to pass by.
emotionally & physically.
SCHOOL JITTERS & the configuration of laptop is just driving me
insane.
smartie asked me somethin today that got me thinkin.
why did I go holy when I'm from Hougang pri.
& most of my mates are going hougang sec.
because I didn't wna be like my mates.
I don't really like a few of them.
plus, I just dont like the thought of enterin there.
so it went into the last choice.
& now getting into RP is no big joke.
firstly it was my 2nd last choice already.
secondly, I've never had the thought of going into RP.
thirdly, it's so far away.
I remembered what benny boy told me.
COMFORT ZONE.
I had been living in it for as long as I know.
I never step out of them, not until camps.
but now, I'll have to do it once again.
the school jitters is really getting more & more stronger as days pass.
who would I meet in school?
& would I really be able to adapt well?
I only told myself this.
if I put more faith & give myself encouragement.
I'm sure I'll be able to do it.
SOCIABLE.
thats the word.
configuration so far had been super chaotic.
& if I don't get it done before orientation on the 11th.
I'll look like a silly fool on 1st day of orientation.
TOTALLY NOOB.
& I'll most probably have to share a laptop with someone.
someone whom I dont know at all.
on the site states.
mail would be sent respectively after 30 march.
BUT, I hadn't get my laptop configured.
so, I don't have my account.
neither is my outlook express done.
so how should I see my mails?
how would I know what I'll be in for on the 1st day of orientation?
CRAP LOAD OF SHIT.
physically I'm like a piece of poopoo.
since the day I had jaw lock.
my health has been on the RED LIGHT ever since.
blinkin profusely on how ill I was.
okays, not to the extreme.
but uncomfortable is the word.
& I promised pentium.
that I'll visit the doctor on monday if I see no improvement in myself.
charlotte's sick too.
my poor baby. ):
hold me tight, I lack the sense of security.the touch from u melts me all up.Labels: emotions, reflections
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