♥ shan's.

Saturday, June 30, 2007

make a wish, a carry the dreams ahead.

i got awoken up super early by my mom.
b'cause we're leaving home to go to some place.
for some traditional chinese breakfast.
the toast bread, egg and tea kind?
but the mee hoon my mom ordered is so so delicious.

& seriously, i've grown fatter.
weight wise i'm not sure because i dont know where's the weighing machine.
but my face looks chubbier.
& more tempted to be pinched by people.
so i really should stop eating.

i think i was very scary ystd.
i ate during 1st break.
then met up with the pretty starfish for quite awhile during 2nd break.
& after school i ate my oreo biscuit b'cause i was very very hungry.
went dinner with the pee buddies after that.
i ate super loads.
i dont know why!

met up my cousins today in town.
with the intention to get momsie her bday present.
& she has no idea at all that i went town to buy her present.
but bad bad us went to do MAJOR shopping.
lols, severe clothes trying at MNG and ZARA.
OMG lahs, i found tops that i so like in ZARA & they're super cheap.
but i had to forgo the top because i need to survive on the amount left.

!!!!!!!!!
there goes the top.
nvm, i'll get the top from my cousin if i wna wear it.
we both fell in love with the same top.
photos after monday.
LOLS.
i kept my words too, said to support songming & i went to MNG to look for him.
im nice and good. :D

& so took the super crowded bus 54 to gram's place.
usual things.
the cake was super delicious!
bro bought the cake from secret receipe and its very very tasty!
chocolate banana cake.
:D

im guilty b'cause i had far too much cake this week.
let's count.
2 strawberry bday cake from huat & friends.
1 oreo cheesecake.
1 dark chocolate bday cake from family.
1 chocolate banana cake.

& im tempted to eat KFC's miso crunch meal tml.
OMG, so sinful!

me and pee bro chris play games alot in class.
b'cause we either get pissed off with the problem.
or we dont feel like doing anything.
& so watch what we do.

he's owning the game lahs!

but maybe NOT. :D

chris sucks in puzzle since long long ago, he always admit so. BUCK UP CHRIS!

MOMSIE'S BDAY CELEBRATION @ GRAMS.

the very very nice choco banana cake.

my dad don't feel like getting into the photo.HAHA.

baby's my mom prospective god daughter.

yes please, cut the cake so i can eat it. :D

hurry see whats inside, its freaking NICE.

momsie's bday present a very beautiful necklace which looks very expensive.

mundane routine goes on and on.
i'm getting sick of solving a problem everyday.
i question myself from time to time what have i learn in RP.
okays, relevant and irrelevant things.
& i still hate science.
the UTs and all.
please die.
):
we do the same old thing everyday.
brainstorm.
search information.
collate into ppt.
presentation.
we do it for the sake of doing it now.

sal helped me counted my GPA.
2.6.
it's so low i feel like killing myself.
but what can i do?
stop skipping lessons and do better for UTs?
i thought i already gave my all?
or was it just plain assumptions.
i need to survive the 3 years in RP.
i really need to.
someone, please tell me i can do it.

blogged at 11:51 PM

Thursday, June 28, 2007

baby, kiss away the pain.

i just want to rant something.

I WANT TO SLEEP!!!

but, my hair isn't dry.
& my eyes are closing.
AND tml's finally FRIDAY!

:D

today's UT screwed.
very screwed.
if only it's not 30 mins.
ROTS!

my thumbdrive died again.
the only way to revive it is to ehhhs.
reformat it again.
LOLS.
poor bear bear.
it's been attack by virus for 3 times already!

& im waiting for my bro to install my roller coaster tycoon 3.
IM WAITING.
alvin pls?

YAWNS.
nights.

blogged at 11:28 PM

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

HAPPY SWEET SEVENTEEN TO MYSELF. :D

yes yes.
26 JUNE!

which meant it's MY birthday!
so it's school day like always.
& there was enterprise module UT.
which wasn't easy at all.

science module was alrights.
just that, i need catching up again.
like forever okays?

so i had like 2 surprises or more.
ee wen & kim bought me my fav oreo cheesecake!
LOVES!
then the next one was totally unexpected.
from bf, corene & yiqian.
total shock!
i was playing with wene's laptop when they came in.

OH OH!
i played DOTA ystd using wene's laptop.
campaign mood.
lols.
& im still a noob.

dinner celebration with the pee buddies.
& chris actually fell asleep and his phone was on silent.
so, he owe me THOUSANDS.
swensens at causeway.
SLURPS.

my free firehouse icecream minus the fire.

this smile will never fade away.

then rush home to cut bday cake with the family.
plus BABY!
(:
she's super adorable.
she gave me kiss kiss when i asked her.
chocolate cake!

blow the candle off.

baby's my love.

happy seventeen shan! (:

present from corene, it's so tiny cute!

girlfriend did such a sweet thing for me.
i cried after reading it.
she's my gf.
she knows me well.
she's the one that will never desert me.
:D

loves from girlfriend. :D

& here's my thank u list in no order of preference.

girlfriend irah.
clar.
esthr.
dine.
xavier.
melvin.
fusheng.
songming.
jeramy.
yeowting [he rmbs its my bday! :D ]
sam. [that stupid/silly (whatever!) guy who wanted to meet me & make my bday better. :D ]
nelson.
donavan.
eunice.
xiao yuan.
shimin.
amron.
corene.
alex.
songwei.
yiqian.
qiongyi.
zhenbing.
alan.
terry.
jiazhen.
leonard.
eugene.
liangsheng.
eileen.
wilson.
yangjun.
chunfu.
the peeps in W14M.
PEE BUDDIES! - sheena. yonghow. ahmad. wene. chris.

if i miss out anyone, tag me and tell me hokays?

THANKS ALL! :D

you don't need to care about the rules.

blogged at 11:18 PM

Monday, June 25, 2007

the mood feels so stiff & it's getting so hard to breathe.

& i only have the time to blog now.
LAUGHS.
i'm like in school and have already completed the worksheet assigned.
so whats left now is to check through the PPT thn upload.
& wait for facil to come back at 1.15pm so we could call it a day after 6P.

thats monday.
very nice & i love it.
(:
but im feeling very ehhhhhs.
lousy now.
all thanks to the churning of my gastric.
& i have 3 cakes in front of me now.
BUT I CAN'T EAT ANYONE!
):
booo hooo.

i'll so bring them home.
& eat.
i'll go home, nap and study hard for UT tml.

ystd was some fun time.
the MONSTERS helping me to celebrate my bday in advance.
thanks guys! (:

so i met up with babe earlier thinking to buy the utensils.
but ended up, it was like drizzling over at pasir ris.
so no choice but to gather everyone at mac.
met up with mel, lil sis, jer @ mac while me & babe ate.
the darn TERRIYAKI BURGER IS SO NICE!

went to shop for the utensils, drinks and all.
then left together with everyone to find the pit.
& it ended up, i selected a super deserted area for BBQ.
ops, sorry.

okays, im not going to elaborate.
if not i'll like have to type out all details of the BBQ.
it's fun, minus and dont think about the spoiler part.
(:

i reached home near 11pm.
but my mom was nice enough to understand why.
LOLS.

THANKS TO THOSE WHO CAME YSTD.
u guys made my day!

LOVES.

i want to play games.
blame my pee buddies.
cause they're all gaming in the night.
thn i keep drawing circles.

i saw a nice game that day at popular.
& im going to popular again later.
cause im TEMPTED TO BUY THE GAME!
(:

i'll sit in this and watch the sun set.

i took this from pee bro yonghow's blog. i always tell him this! (:

if you understand, nothing of such would happen.

blogged at 10:17 AM

Saturday, June 23, 2007

u look around and sense the world going all too fast.
would u stick around to catch up or would u just stop moving?

i don't know whats wrong with me.
but i slept till 3PM.
15 hours of sleep.
ehhhhhs, thats a bit too much.

& so i hadn't studied or understand a single thing for the upcoming UT.
ROTS.
i so need to study even if it's to the wee hours for today.
learn from past mistakes.

they asked what we learnt in RP.
i merely replied nothing related to my course.
but it's just some extra things.
facilitators said, don't question yourself why u're learning this.
we're just broadening your range of knowledge.
& letting u have better fundamental knowledge of other modules.

rant & rant so many times about studying in RP.
but does it helps?
i still have like 2 years & 1 more sem to go through.
how awful?
i always told others that i'll strive hard in RP.
but how possible to when my motivation gets lost so often?
the desire to persevere went missing?

moderation in RP for UTs has done so much harm/help.
whatever, just choose 1.
i failed my computing & maths module UT.
14/40.
okays, nothing proud of it.
but my grade shows a C+

so what if there's no moderation or something?
argh.

it may seems to be enjoying life in RP.
but think again.

1st meeting (1 hour) - see problem statement, do first meeting template (FMT)
break 1 hour - eating with classmates.
2nd meeting (1 hour) - do research, brainstorm HARD.
break 2 1/2 hour - rush out a good powerpoint.
3rd meeting (2 hour) - presentation, see facil's powerpt.

NOT.

okays, i better go start studying or something.
or maybe go bathe first.
LOLS.

clar's the one that makes me happy, sad, pissed. LOVES BABE!

please show me where the road is heading to, im lost

blogged at 6:15 PM

Friday, June 22, 2007

this was lost and it'll never return.

i want to keep longer hair.
thats settled!

i need some repent sessions.
argh.
okays, i dont want to elaborate.
it's only me skipping lessons thats all.
hahas!

sentosa with babe, diana and diana's friend.
i dont know how to spell her name.
something like sheila?
slacked, camwhore, sms, bathe.
then took a train back home.

now here i am, typing out this entry.
& am very sleepy.
STUDY STUDY STUDY!

3 more UTs to go.
i screwed up ystd's.
& left during 1st break.

okays, i'm getting super naughty.
i need to REPENT.
hahahs.

WHAT I WANT TO DO :

stop skipping lessons b'cause doesn't helps.
start saving money b'cause it's running low.
stop drawing money out from my poor ATM
deposit back the 50 dollars i took from ATM
STUDY for UTs
exercise the tummy away.
stop taking cabs unless necessary.

such a long list.
ARGGGGGGHHHHHHHH.
i need to do something to myself.
LOLS, sounds so emo.
but sometimes when we know something in us is changing.
we'll want to avoid the bad change and become a good person.
or am i the only one that doesn't want to turn bad?

pee bro told me this last night.
sometimes we need to be bad.
but i feel im super bad by skipping school.
b'cause i'm letting my parents down aint i?
okays, im starting to think too much again.

PHOTO TIME!

& so , it's TanJong Beach.

thats just us girls.

this lady here is trying to promote PEPSI.

us 4 ladies on the beach.

babe & i.

look at what she did whn i was smsing!

babe, me, diana's friend's feet & diana.

when i look far, it's all sea and emptiness.

she's CRAZY! very very! (:

i love this one.

seee, understand the defination of crazy already?

so blue, so cold.

this feels like baywatch to me because of the couple running. HAHAS.

hahahs, she's my babe.

I love this photo alot alot, it's my phone's wallpaper.

just enjoy like u never had!

blogged at 7:55 PM

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

he walked through the door &
appeared in front of her with that bouquet of flowers.

computing and maths module is as good as
asking me to go to a 15 storey building and jump down.
perfect.
Visual Basics again!
& creating back the same thing wasn't simple.

maybe I didn't like maths.
so i dont like computing either.
I MUST MUST MUST UNDERSTAND VB!
):

okays, i so need to study on sat.
for enterprise and science.
FREAK, science.

dont ask me why im studying all these modules.
b'cause i wasn't given a choice.
STRIVE.
I WILL AND CAN SURVIVE IN RP!

& tml's communication UT.
i haven't study a single shit as yet.
wish me lucks baby.
if i can pass, i'll be a happy kid for sure.

nvm, sun's coming!

sometimes its not up to us to decide what should happen.

blogged at 10:41 PM

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

all i can see is a field of emptiness & nothing else.

Listening To : Right Here Waiting For You - Richard Marx

& today's basic science module.
SCREAMS.
i never love science, never in the past.
neither will it in the future.

skipping the previous few lesson was a mistake.
BIG ONE.
b'cause the following are super related to it.
whatever the pressure thing.
i so need to LEARN.

study, yes FINE.
sam begged me to study the other day!
hahahhas, because i was like so tired i didn't wna continue on?
thanks huh sam.

so how's today UT.
i hope moderation is good.
(:
b'cause i didn't know what i was writing.
in a way, the question is posed in such a way.
u know what the answer is.
BUT, u don't know how to phrase it.
so screwed.

thur's another UT.
communication.
i don't wanna fail it again.
BUT, i'm really tired and my nose is runny.
I WANT TO SLEEP.

i have cravings for gelare suddenly in school.
so i MSN yonghow my pee bro.
and he said he dont mind going with me!
then ended up chris, ahmad, wene said okays too! (:
gelare turned swensen.
!!!!
save money shan, u need to SAVE TERRIBLY!

baby's sick.
down with fever according to my mom.
& now she's at auntie cecelia's place.
I MISS HER.
it's strange when she's not here at my place anymore.

okays, my nose is super runny.
and i should go off, study abit.
and SLEEP.
by 12AM.

im freaking SLEEPY.

i didn't know anything, i was stupid i was foolish
i was lying to myself.

blogged at 11:01 PM

Sunday, June 17, 2007

who do u want to be?

2 problems down.
1 more to go for cognitive.
i think i still love the usage of papers and pens.
beats better than staring at the screen for very long.
& i mean VERY VERY long.

i was thinking about something ystd.
this thought came into my mind.

you can change to suit others.
but how many others can u change for to suit them?
why not just be yourself and let them adapt what's meant to be?

true isn't it?
then i realised i changed to different individual just to suit them.
it meant i wasn't myself anymore.
why do we have to change to fit who they are?

sometimes it's how people look at us and make us change so differently.
why can't they take us for who we are?
if it's a positive change for something better.
literally, i won't mind.
but if we change just to suit their desire.
i find it no longer worth it.

you don't have to do what they do to fit in.
just be yourself and they'll accept who u're.

hahahs, so reflective.
nice topic.

okays, shooo.
i need to continue studying.
got to leave home at around 4.45pm.

TOODLES;

if this is it, it'll be but it's not meant to be;

blogged at 3:05 PM

Saturday, June 16, 2007

you won't want to make it more confusing.
because it brings u no good and it won't bring u far.

Listening to : 隱形的翅膀 - 張韶涵

this song is so nice.
it keeps playing on youtube.
because i kept pressing watch again.
anyone has this song?
send me please please please?

stay home saturday today.
i skipped going to keefe's 8th bday celebration.
because i don't feel like going to some function?
okays, im weird.
whatever.

i studied like FINALLY.
but i only completed one problem.
and im afraid i forgot whatever shit i studied.
not something good.
but cognitive problem 5 very difficult ehs!
what's with all the brainstorming basic rules to understand?

okays, i need to continue studying.
if not i'll fail this UT this time.
and talk about failing.
I NEED TO PASS COMMUNICATION UT THIS TIME.
give me at least a B!

tell me why am i still so skinny when i eat SO MUCH, seoul garden was before this.

some pee buddies love needed?

pee sisters went to cut their hair.

oh so noob shan.

strive shan! (:

blogged at 5:22 PM

Friday, June 15, 2007

this isn't as simple as u thought it would be.

i met up with lil sis finally!
seoul garden with her plus mel and jer.
after meal and some walking around.

headed to meet pee buddies after that.
dinner at swensens.
planned to study but failed.
i dont think i studied anything.
no idea why either.

i had a terrible encounter on my way home.
because i was alone.
super freaking pissed off.

i got no mood for bloggin.
sorry.

blogged at 11:21 PM

Thursday, June 14, 2007

it wont be that bad because,
u've learnt to be strong already.

IM BACK FROM MIA.
lols.
smartie complained that he didn't see me online for SO LONG.
sorry ahs.

and so i went for the chalet.
stayed throughout.
watch bro's match.
had a BBQ.
tonned the entired day.

TIRED LAHS!

i wont elaborate the details cause there's no pt too.
lols!
let the photos speak.
& i forget to take photo with jie.
LAUGHS.

group photo without mel the pig(kiddin) who went home.

what we do at chalet.

bro with fs' monster. it's an art piece.

chuanxun & bro.

u'll never win them! chuanxun & fusheng.

they're my bro and jie.

im lazy to upload all!

tml im going out.
meet up with esthr.
the lil sis which i hadn't meet up for so long.
then dinner and studying with PEE BUDDIES.

I MISS PEE BUDDIES.
lols, the lame and cold jokes.
the heartwarming heart to heart talk session.

let the flaws be the motivation to change for the better.
i'm changing for the better now.

blogged at 7:41 PM

Sunday, June 10, 2007

im a little lost today.

anw, i think my mom is crazy.
she just went kluang last friday.
and now she's telling me let's go together on next fri.

HEY HEY, cannot!
i've already made plans for lil sis and pee buddies.
i dont wna change anything anymore.
RWARRRRRS.
and she's telling me to cancel them and study for UT now.
ehhhhhs, i bet i'll forget every single shit i studied.

and, i dont wna go KLUANG anymore.
SERIOUS.
it's creepy hokays.
like i went in march.
then they went last week.
and now they wna go again?

NO PLEASE.
give me a break from msia.
i wna travel further.
(:

it's true sometimes that we do get lost here and there.
but we always got back on track.
it's the motivation, the drive and the believe.

it's useless if we don't believe we can do it.
then there will be no aim, no goals.
so what are we to reach out for?
nothing, thats pretty obvious.

it'll be nothing if we don't have the motivation to last.
so what if u have goals, but lack the motivation to hang u there?
nothing helps?
or can people's critics bring u the motivation?

what if u dont have the drive at all?
it's the same as there wasn't any start.

i reflected on how far i've walked through these years.
ups and downs, u name it i've walked through it.
it's the motivation, the drive and the believe.
that kept me till now.

i wouldn't dwell on the past.
cause why not live life the happier way?
i made my choice.
what about u?

(:

HAPPY KID!

it's up to u to make an option.
but it's how u're going to make it come true.

blogged at 4:44 PM

Saturday, June 09, 2007

if u're happy and u know it, clap ur hands.
CLAP CLAP.

clar the babe saved me from boredoom today.
shopping!
YAYNESS.
i bought the tank top again.
but this time in black.

i ate my fav cookies AGAIN.
subway cookies, u got to love them!
then drank oreo crush!
yes, i got all my fav things in 1 day!
dont doubt how happy i am.
but im really VERY VERY HAPPY.
(:

we kept walking around wisma and scotts.
and we travelled the scotts underpass for more tha 3 times.
kept getting flyer people pissing us off.
they SHOVED THE FLYER INTO US.
it's irritating in a way.
and clar hates people who survey on the road.
even if its a hunk.

LAUGHS.

we walked to far east eventually and shopped around for my short.
LOUSY LOUSY.
i spotted a white shorts.
but it's WHITE.
and so i skipped it.
tried 2 shorts but i dont like that.
it's SMALL and makes me super skinny.

met up with clar's friend esther and another girl.
i forget her name was lixuan or lixian.
STM.
esther is super funny.
so we went back scott's TOPSHOP.
and thats how my tank top came about.

then to wisma's topshop.
thn back home through bus.
I LOVE LONG BUS RIDE.

hahahs, i took a bus to TPY int.
then from TPY back home.
159.
alighted at point and walked around the boutique shop.
and i finally found my pants and bought it!
lols!

MAC is for dinner.

let's count my total spending for today.

23 bucks for shorts.
11.20 bucks for tank top.
2.75 bucks for subway cookies.
1.85 bucks MAC reg coke.
1.90 bucks oreo crush.
4 bucks for MAC dinner.

= $44.70

APPLAUDS.
i so need to curb my spending already!

anw, i just wrote down my UT schedule.
and they kinda suck.
though i knew i have a UT on my bday long long ago.

19 JUNE - cognitive processes & problem solving
21 JUNE - introduction to communication practice
26 JUNE - enterprise skills
28 JUNE - basic science
03 JULY - COMPUTING & MATHEMATICAL METHODS

okays, enterprise UT on my bday.
HAHAHAHHAS.

i need to start my science revision.
i dont know the speed pressure formula.
and next week is my last week of hols.

RWARRRRRS.

IM A HAPPY KID. (:

this smile is so sweet.

blogged at 9:41 PM

Friday, June 08, 2007

SPELL MY NAME.
S-H-A-N!

i woke up super early today b'cause baby's leaving home.
in the morning that is it.
so i woke up just so i can carry her.
and she gave me a kiss!

awwwwww, i love her tons!
after baby left, i was totally left to rot with nothing to do.
lols, studying for UTs is still too early.
next week next week.
so i came online.
and edited photos.
i did 1 for pee bro chrissy poo RP aircon!

nice?

lunched and i went to sleep till 7pm.
which meant a full 6 hours of nap.
BECAUSE I'VE NOTHING TO DO!!

so how's ur hols like?
i bet it wont be as bored as mine rights?
i stayed home for 4 days out of the 6 days.
LAUGHS.
i only went out twice.
sentosa with class and pee buddies dinner.

TELL ME, how BORED it is?

someone, please save me!
i only knew i have some programmes for next week.

1. meet esther up for seoul garden
2. study for UTs
3. meet up with pee buddies at vivo
4. a chalet

and i wna do alot of things.

1. go shopping.
2. watch movie with gf.
3. go k box with my cousin!
4. save money.
5. have a sweet seventeen. (:

okays, let the photos speak first.

she's my love.

WHEEEEES.

and saving money that part.
it's super hilarious.
ystd when i met up with the pee buddies.
i told big bro beforehand to curb my spending.
lols, and guess what?

we ate new york new york.
we even went to sing K box.
hahas, and.
CONCLUSION.
i spend every single money i have left.

EVIDENCE!

see! NEW YORK NEW YORK ehs!

onion rings my new love!

and big bro's peach drink is so cool looking.

SCANDAL SCANDAL within pee buddies!

hahs, exposed exposed!

im happy at the way things are now.
just stay this way would do.

blogged at 9:33 PM