♥ shan's.

Thursday, November 29, 2007

shan's a very tired kid now;

school was fun today.
watched a walk to remember in class today with mabel's laptop.
nice but i didn't cry, in fact no one cried.
ahahahahs.
wen wasn't in school today.
have no idea what happen.

after school rotted in class with mel, JJ, ainul, huizhen, mabel and PD.
then auntie came and clean the class so we had to move downstairs.
talked while betty do her Rj and wait for sheena and the rest to come down.

walked to CWP with them and betty.
pizza hut for bday dinner.
pizza.

went home after that with willis.
bluff me somemore.

anw, i hadn't been meeting kim and eewen lately for breaks.
i miss them!
)):
screw school, screw worksheets!

im so tired so i'll leave this entry with a few photo.
:D

shannon, i caught u on cam! :P

one group photo before we leave.

last shot.

see the thing hanging on my phone? number 9!!!!!! ((:

thanks for what u've done silly.
(:

blogged at 11:19 PM

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

tired heart beats for a little survival among the mess;

science module was alrights.
i gave up doing worksheet because it was so so so confusing.
& certainly i was still very HALF AWAKE.

took the same bus with mel to school this morning.
ended up we were too early and even had enough time to buy mac to school.
helped wen buy mac breakfast.
joan is back for class!
YAYS!

course briefing was super LAME.
programme chair had already picked out the modules that we need to take.
so hannah and me was thinking why do they still want us to select our module?
lame shit lahs!

left after presentation.
rushed to dental and only to hear the person tell me this.
"your appointment is at 2.15pm, why are u here now?"
I thought it was really my mistake but no way could it be.
the letter wrote 28 nov 4.15pm level 5.
so how can it be wrong?
called momsie and asked her to confirm my doubts ended up i was right all along.
and the person had to gave me a little attitude face.

dentist saw me.
and told me that it was the register's error.
nice try lahs.
momsie called and scolded the person who attended me for registration.
I KNEW IT!
((:

back home and baby stick to me like glue.
no matter what, she don't want elephant!
lols!
something's wrong with her.
baby sat down with me and watch tv, this alone is damn STRANGE.
cause no way will she sit down quietly.

just completed RJ not long, going to study for tml's UT and then sleep.
im dead tired now!
i walk in the rain.
)):

BWAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS.

feelings stirred.
i dont want to think about all the what if.
let time prove everything, that everything was meant to be.
like you said, im slowly accepting.
you might be rights.
i have no ideas at all.

blogged at 11:59 PM

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

RWARRRRRRRRRRRS.

i forget what i wanted to blog.
but nvm, i only rmb one thing.
my buddy DELONG is back in town.
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES.
got plans to meet him up for dinner on fri.
pls make it happen?

i miss that buddy of mine!
okays, back to do RJ all these now.

TOODLES;

blogged at 8:30 PM

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Listening to : Shut up and drive - Rihanna

I missed the brisk walk this morning b'cause I was so freaking tired.
actually I woke up at 6.30am but I went back to bed.
LOLS.
what else beside laziness kicking in thus resulting in oversleep?

the funniest thing is laoda called me.
then she told me this, alot of old people doing QI GONG lehs.
lols, i was still half awake when i heard it lahs!

i missed everything cause i watched soccer late last night.
a match that was so BORRRRRINNNNNG.
i went to sleep even without finishing it.
it's ARSENAL vs WIGAN.
freaking boring can.
I don't know what nation of soccer was arsenal playing ystd.
so i gave up watching.
but faggot, near the end then they scored 2 goals in 2 mins.

went town with elephant.
beard papa, ice cream, far east.
went to find wen and talk for awhile before shopping around there.
thinking if i should buy my pumps in spore or msia.
RWARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRS.
then headed over to shaw house and look for jolin.
talk awhile to her.
thn it's off to compass.

meet up with parents and bro to go to IKEA.
okays, i dont want to be remembered of how pissed my mom made me.
there's soemthing wrong with her today.
every comment she made was all pinpointing me.
it's as though i've committed a death penalty crime.
-.-"
it's got to be she PMS or whatever shit.

she just spoiled the day.
she always do.

stop saying as though i'm not bothered with my CE points.
dont take it as though i'm not doing anything to it.
ever know how tired i am before u said those comments?
do u really think i freaking want to PS kim and laoda so i can sleep in?
and then miss the CE points for brisk walk too?
come on, with all those comments, it goes to show how much u don't understand me.
in ur eyes, im forever that daughter of urs that will never do well.
all u wish is that i do whatever u said so.
come one day, if i rebel, search for the answers within u and asked what u've done.

PISSED.

figure the days out by urself b'cause i have no mood to post.
BYE.

blogged at 11:00 PM

Friday, November 23, 2007

it's killing me softly.

the week is O-V-E-R!
it's been so tough to get it over given that i start off the week feeling unwell.
did i?
errrrr, whatever it is.
lols!

enterprise today was okays and the reason for me being online now?
i'm trying to do my RJ now instead of tml morning.
kim is going to scold me b'cause i told her i'm not coming online.
and i've no idea if i have the strength to get out to walk tml.
)):

today's damn terrible.
i've no appetite at all.
and come to think of it, i hadn't eaten much things today but i'm not hungry at all!
let me recall what i've ate today.
1. bread i bought from hougang int as breakfast
2. caramel oreo during 2nd break
3. 2 sushi and honeydew milk tea moment ago

)):

eyes irritation and on and off flu and on the verge of losing voice.
my eyes went super itchy and red in class today.
then i felt so cold.
naz kept telling me it's not cold.
RWARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRS.
i survive through lesson though.

went straight home right after school.
kim went off without me!
no lahs, she had to meet her mom then have something on later.
so i went off on my own.
reached home and baby's sick.
fever then she looked damn sian-ded.
my poor baby!

i slept when baby and momsie went ave 8 to have dinner.
all the way till 9 plus when momsie woke me up to eat sushi and bubble tea.
else, i think i'll sleep till 11 plus then realise, i hadn't change out of my clothes from school and i've yet to bathe and all.
STINKY SHAN!

wait, on the sake i'm sick.
im not stinky!
lame enough.
okays, i need to go bathe now.
then attempt to write long enough for my RJ.
then doze off to bed again.

TOODLES.

this is the bunch who never fails to make me laugh like nobodies business! (:

blogged at 10:12 PM

Thursday, November 22, 2007

fickle minded.

i woke up at 6.30am and thought i still have long time to waste before leaving home.
but sadly, i was so wrong and rushed like mad to take train to school since it's UT day.
took the same bus 72 as bf then same train to school.
i was complaining to him how songwei bullied me on the bus ystd on the way home.
we took 902 to school.
then off to our diff classes.
mel thought i wasn't going to come school and msged me when i just nice,
opened the class door.
lols!

UT2 finally ended with enterprise module.
okays, i so don't know how to do my UT today.
calculations i'm so not sure of and the rest, is so not direct.
to think JJ say okays lehs.
faggot.
UT3 starts next thurs.
)):

culture was on gender equality.
where is it a dream or was it not.
debate for 2 team while rou's team had ppt.
debate was errrrrrrr, funny?
it feel as if we were 5 arguing with 2 which is desmond and yvonne.

then went off to causeway point with kim and laoda.
bought flowers for dine's bday!
then 161 to compass with willis.
then train to hougang to meet fusheng and songming.
lols, sorry ah guys.
because of me u 2 got to be late.
)):

dinner was fun and filling.
the food is not bad there and atmosphere wise, no need to say.
all we heard was whistle and the beeper sound.
AND1 court was beside only.
the guys bullied sis by spreading the remaining cake on her face.
next bday up is melvin's!
whip cream ahs!
else, CHEESE.
muahahahahhahahas.

monster bunch accompanied me till 112 came.
thanks!
okays, i think i better stop here and go sleep soon.
cause i have 3 morning call to make.
if i overslept, monster's going to be late.
his lesson is at 8am.
so 6am, call melvin the monster.
then 7am, songming which i have to ring till he hang up on me.
next after songming is terry.
phone calls one after another.

morning call fever.
BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS.
& photos for sis' bday will be up after sis or bro sends them to me.
:D
finally, i have a monster group photo.
bunch of monsters excluding the ladies which is namely, sis, me and emily.
((:

etp tml.

TOODLES;

blogged at 11:29 PM

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

splash of gold.

my third day of seeing relief facil.
my facils are all SICK.
lols, I almost wanted to not go to school.
but my mom don't allow.
im really getting sick mummy!
i'm not lying!

im on the verge of getting into a bout of bad flu!
bet it's the weather and the fact that i endured ystd without my cardigan.
school's cold enough and damn it when i hadn't have any extra clothings ystd!
so now goes the damn awful feelings.
RWARRRRRRRRS.
which literally resulted to poor appetite today.
):
chicken rice my fav in school and yet.
i didn't finish.

tml's last test for UT2.
WHEEEEEEEEEEES.
but it's useless too.
cause next thurs is the start of UT3.
....................
sppechless.
hate RP.
UT = useless test
HA HA HA.

msn's back to use again.
im so happy!
no more IM b'cause it's so irritating!

i'll be so broke after tml.
yes.
)):

& i painted my nails gold.
but it's very ugly because the polish is too thick and so on.
clar's helping me soon!
(:

okays, off to study for UT now.
chiong ahs!!!!!!!!!

gold has the ancient feel;

blogged at 9:33 PM

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

2nd break now.
and im so so bored.

okays, Cog facil isn't here in school today.
TMD, she give me B for last week when I did so much.
fcking pissed with her too.

when the weeks before makes me turn into getting used to everything.
then suddenly, everything stopped.
abit of not used to, and a little of wanting it back.
but caught in dilemma.
everything so freaking tiring.

[edit at 2100]
Rj done.
YEPS!
:D
i've been doing RJ in class after school these days.
just so I can sleep earlier.
going to go bathe soon.
because i want to sleep, the weather is so nice!

thurs is coming!
monsters clique!

my mom's dating me to go compass eat tml.
wow.
rare.
but it can also mean i can get to buy some stuffs!
muahahahhahahaas.
shall see what i can do.

i think i should study for etp ut after bathing.
i should.

The cleaner aunty took my cardigan when i left it in class ystd!
faggot.
im so writin an email and complain.
it's not urs so just leave it in the class and keep ur hands off my things.
damn pissed.

when everything is against reality, i'm stuck in between.
searching for an answer deep inside me.
but like always, im so silly and had no answers.
let time prove everything.
if this is whats meant to be, it'll be.
but if it's not, i'll only blame it upon myself.
too much of dependency.
hate the fact but unconsciouly growing used to.
this is all so real.

[/EDIT]

blogged at 12:17 PM

Monday, November 19, 2007

play that funky music.

so my facil isn't here in school today.
they gave us a damn KUKU relief facil.
now i realised how blessed i am that all my facil is so damn good.
maybe except for one.
lols, audrey tan lahs.

bro hates her to core.
i'll if she dont give me A for last week's lesson.
and till now, she hadn't grade us.
I BITE her then she know!
okies, enough of crap.
tml's her lesson.

back to today's lesson.
this relief facil.
wow, i dont even know her name.
HAHAHAHAHHS, nice job there FACIL.
she never facilitate the class.
come in, never go through PDT, never tell us can start worksheet.
screw her.
and she talks like a bullet train.
maybe yongann understands her only.

tml's culture UT.
nothing to study.
so GOOD LUCK to me.
:D

im fcking pissed at somebody who kept coming to me EVERYWEEK for ppt.
cm'on, why not see the problem and try it urself first instead of asking people for ppt in advance.
given for me, i only will ask for problem statement.
i'll make myself do PDT at home first and understand the problem.
but diff case for people.
im so pissed.
trust me, i wont mind sending ppt when they need help.
but not like practically every week, same module.

i've been trying real hard.
to open up myself and find an answer.
but i couldn't hear or feel an answer from within.
maybe i hadn't tried enough.
maybe fate hadn't been there.
im still me.

blogged at 10:39 PM

this weather is perfect for everything except sports.

im so tired of everything.
yes, everything.

one day, i'll just appear offline.
then, shut off all communications means.

okays, kidding.
((:

4 weeks to hols.
and the parents have decided not to go on cruise.
BINGO!
no need to have meals on my own.

tml's school again.
i don't even sense myself having enough rest.
stupid shan.

so many words yet i don't know how to say them out.

blogged at 12:02 AM

Saturday, November 17, 2007

you walk and run,
then starts to jump off and so u died.

woke up late b'cause when i was about to drag my butt of bed.
bro woke up and hog the toilet.
BOOOOOS.
then read papers before preparing to leave home.
anw, my reason for being late was really b'cause i cont readin the newspapers and forgot about the time.

bought donughts cause kim is hungry and also because that's my treat to them.
punishment for being late.
pft.
met up with them at YCK station.
then met dydy at sommerset.

took our booklet and ate free lunch before setting off to start the day!
signatures and well wishes for spore's bid for youth olympic games.
tough day but it was so fun with their companion.
especially shannon that joker.
dy and i will never forget what he say.
hellos sir, errrr, mdm.
ahahahahhahahs!

sam is super bro!
he really came and help me sign the booklet along with his gf!
thanks so much man bro!
so we don't owe each other now.
i help u do ur report that day, u help me by coming down and sign.
((:

bought my watch finally.
sheesh.
another thing from my wish list down.
then off to gram's place for 2nd dinner.

baby's damn cute.
she sticks to me like glue, but gives me up when my dad comes.
i'll so smack her butt.

and momsie they all wants to go cruise on next wed-fri.
wahs, they're OH SO GREAT.
first they've confirmed going to msia on 10 - 12 dec.
now she tells me cruise on next week.
splendid.
but nvm, lucky i have prog after school next week.
thurs is jie's bday dinner.
wed is go home chiong UT.
fri they'll be back in morning.

ohhhh, that reminds me.
monster told me about.
doopy horray!
:D

okays, i can't wait for my hair to dry now cause i want to sleep
and my retainer are freaking killing me.
blame myself for refusing to wear them.
and now, the teeth is not straight, i've to wear them to correct them.
pft, it's such a pain in the ass.

nights.
(:

blogged at 11:49 PM

Friday, November 16, 2007

listening to : muttons on 98.7FM

today's been rather pleasant.
changed facil!
((:
she's so nice!
now i look more forward to fri than last time.
GOODBYE CLARENCE TAN.
& HELLOS, KAREN LEE.

:D

went woodlands centre after that to buy jeans.
WEEEEEEEEEEEE.
freaking cheap.
and so thanks girls, that is kim and zinc.

dinner at home.
RJ then now im waiting for my hair to dry.
b'cause tml is another long day.

day out with pentium after YOG event!
can't wait.

TOODLES.

im unsure of my feelings,
but what u once did for me,
touched me no doubt.
thanks.

blogged at 11:43 PM

Listening to : Emotions - Destiny Child

UT 2 for science sucks like hell.
because I stared blankly at alot of questions.
then the relief facil for culture is so fierce I cannot stand her.
and feel like shaking her and tell her to stop giving me those eyes else i'll dig it out.
okays, im just exaggerating.
BUT I pretty much hates her for being bitchy.
trust me, she is!

just helped sam do finish the rip curl report.
then complete my own RJ.
and now, im going to bed.

TOODLES.

blogged at 12:57 AM

Thursday, November 15, 2007

i give no definite answer to everything being said.

UT 2 for basic science is later on.
errrrrr, 8 hours and 37 mins more.
b'cause it's 12:23AM.

basic science module was today.
I so love my facil, b'cause she's so unique.
and today morning it was raining like shit when i woke up.
BINGO, i woke up at 6.30 = LATE for taking bus!

but ended up i still managed to take bus to school.
school was DREADFUL though my facil was damn nice.
b'cause
1. it's extremenly cold
2. the weather caused terrible flu
3. did duty for nothing b'cause zinc see wrongly
4. the worksheet qns almost killed me

okays, im going off.
to sleep yes, AGAIN.
flu sucks.

TOODLES.

they said, they've seen me reject more than accept.
i laugh at that.

blogged at 12:21 AM

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

3 -1!

Arsenal defeated Reading.
:D

im freaking sleepy.

TOODLES.

i'll pen down these small thoughts.

blogged at 10:46 PM

this one last try to make it all perfect;

mel and I have set goals for tml's cog module.
we're so going to make sure we get our 2nd A.
anw, im so flooded online.

and revision of UT is still 1/3 not complete.

computung UT 1 result out.
ehhhhhhs, not what i hope for but at least i tried.
okies shan, u can do well better than that.

when pressure from self becomes motivation is loves.
thats when the drive to strivve comes!
so tml is the endurance day.
:D

lord, i pray this in ur name to watch over my clsmate jo.
may lord watch over her as she recover from her injuries, ease her pain whenever she felt them.
Amen.

blogged at 12:25 AM

Sunday, November 11, 2007

when everything feels safe.

i just woke up not long, say barely 2 hours?
yes, i'm sucha pig.
but blame it on myself for sleeping at 2am for the past few nights,
night life is nice b'cause it's all so quiet and cooling.

but i guess tonight's got to be a sleep at 10pm kind of thing?
tml school's starting, fawahhhhhhs!
& what irks me most is that UT is going to continue AGAIN.
how much i dread UT is how much i yearn to go overseas!
which meant ALOT.

i managed to complete studying for VB.
literally ALL VB problems in sem 1 and sem 2.
kiasu is better than nothing and i need to seriously pull up my socks for VB.
& today, im suppose to be studying for science.
all bio's fault.
pft.

smartie is having his match now at the indoor stadium.
wish everything is all fine!
:D

tml school starts, and another 5 more weeks of studying.
before it's HOLS.
the talk about the 2nd hols in sem 2.
class chalet!
i don't know if everything will work.
but hopefully we can have 1 w14m class chalet.

i hope the problem is less stressful for next week.
b'cause i don't want to die right after a short break of 1 week.

i'm trying hard to let go of my past,
and to accept what's now.

blogged at 3:51 PM

Saturday, November 10, 2007

when we know it's right;

parents are at gram's place.
bro's in camp for duty.
me, all alone at home trying to study for UT.

how I wish that we needn't go back to school on next week.
then at least I can sleep longer again!
okays, i'm a PIG.

and the talk of being a pig, I hadn't have my LUNCH yet!!!
i'm hungry so i'll bite anything!

late last night.
say 1 plus am.
ahmad thought I was emoing the shit outta myself again.
nahssssss, i'm just drawing analogy.
this is shan.
:D

okays, maybe a little emo time.
these few weeks with so many things going on.
the thought of everything unfolding into what it is now is scary.
maybe when it happened, I should have opted for a change and things wouldn't be this.

[edit]
im looking forward to next sat!
b'cause im meeting silly pentium!
WHEEEEEES.
we're going to catch BEE movie.
then to chill out as always!
i miss seeing him so much!
:D

[/edit]

aint no barcode scanner, so scandals aint for me.

blogged at 4:31 PM

Friday, November 09, 2007

I feel like running away from everything.

VB sucks.
and friendster's being a bitch for not letting me upload any photos.

I miss running on courts.
screaming for ball.
where has all the sports drive gone to?
what's left is a super duper lazy girl.

my dreams were all put on hold.
so, whats holding me back?

too many a times, i'm really drained.
with no wish to do anything.
it's not me if i don't smile.
it's not me if i'm not blur and create a joke from my blurness.

i think i studied VB till im bonker.
BAHHHHHHHHHHS.

im not certain of this feeling boy.

blogged at 11:07 PM

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Listening to : Kat deluna - whine it up

this was suppose to be like ystd.
but well, had a headache when I came home.
so tada, i'm only posting it today.

I overslept and woke up at 11am when im suppose to meet clique at 12.
so being the damn late me rushed like mad.
ended up all meeting late.
ahahahahs, kim herself was late too.
betty earliest!
ee wen also late.
muahahahahs.

they dropped off at YCK to wait for me cause my bus was slow.
pft.
then i had no idea gf was on the same platform as me.
bad me.
saw her when she entered the train.
HELLOS GF!
(:

trained down to city hall.
took them to wild hibiscus for both ice cream and cakes.
WOOOHOOOO.
they finally understood why I kept mentioning about HORLICKS ice cream.
kim had somethingflower sorbet, betty had banana one.
me?
needless to say, HORLICKS ICECREAM BABYAYE!
laoda had blackforest cake, which i say it's 2.5/5 stars.
HEE HEE HEE.

camwhore while waiting for sal to meet us.
ended up we went to bowling alley first.
we make a bet.
person who lose treat winner.
but sal anulled the bet by saying if betty score 60 and above for last game.
she no need treat.
so last game.
betty winner!
WOW.
:D
no photos of me bowling though kim snapped a damn cute photo of me.
ahahahs!
no way am i going to put that up.
shy okays.
ahahahahhahahahas.

then we transform betty to damn girly!
after bowling, we went to restroom.
then betty make up.
so we had this sudden urge to transform her.
after restroom, we brought her to buy HEELS.
hellos, say H-E-E-L-S with me.
then we wanted to buy dress for betty.
but we were late already.

so we trained down to bugis for our steamboat dinner.
my blood bro told me to go to this shop.
called 鲜得来.
very expensive.
but we had loads of fun lahs.
the food is nice too.
and now, they all know mushroom is my love during steamboat!

TOPSHOP after that follow by bugis street.
I bump into clar and esther at the traffic light while waiting for sal and ee wen.
the world is so small.
betty bought a jeans there.
and me?
im going to get them next week.
*hint hint KIM! :D

trained down to marina bay then back home.
betty slept throughout till YCK i think.
while me, eewen and kim GOSSIP.
bad huh.
ahahaahs.
sal took a bus home at bugis.

oh oh, kim was damn cute.
she blur blur ask us to take the wrong train.
we went up to lavender, then sit down to raffles then change to marina bay.
ahahahs, we were all laughin like mad!

came home bathe.
pop 2 panadols then had no choice but to offline soon.
okays, let the photos speaks!